I'm not the bad guy
Went to the bar last night, which has sort of become a ritual on Tuesdays now. We all go out to Jammins for dollar beer night [ even though I don't drink beer, but $2 screwdrivers are always a plus ] and get our crunk on. All of us who are 21 and register as "old enough to be alive" according to Lucas. I had fun. I had 5 screwdrivers, 2 blowjobs, 1 superman && a lemon drop that Michael bought for me. :] So by the end of it, I was feeling pretty darn good. Buuut...
Ok, so... Lucas is kind of talking to this girl, Erica. I really like her, she's a really nice girl. Really pretty too. But if anyone knows Lucas, you know he is a player. Don't get me wrong, I love the boy to death. He's a good friend, he's hilarious as shit. But he simply cannot commit to one woman. He's young, dumb, and full of cum, as some would say. He's a child, he's 21, good looking, and charming. It's how he gets away with the stunts he pulls. He finds hot dumb broads to buy into him and thus, give it up. He's already nailed this girl twice apparently, but like all the girls do, she's starting to fall for him.
So last night, we we're talking, and she asked, straight up... if he was a player. I'm sorry, but I'm not one of your bros. It's not in my job description as your friend, to lie for you. She came to me, not the other way around. So I told her the truth. I felt awful, cuz her face just fell. Apparently though, I'm not the only person to tell her either. Her cousin Adam warned her as well. Then she asked me if she was gonna get hurt, and I told her "yes". I kindly asked her if she was looking for a good time or a commitment. And she said she wanted a commitment. And sorry honey, but Lucas isn't it. She's a nice, smart girl, and I hope she doesn't continue to think she can "change" him or whatever it is these girls think they can do. But whatever, she will do whatever she wants to do in the end, right?
I mean, she would have a better chance with Ryan, than with Lucas. Plus, she just got out of a 5 year relationship, she doesn't need to be crushed again so soon. The only thing that keeps her attached is his looks. I wonder if I would be like that if I was as good looking. I sure hope not...
But I couldn't help but feel like I betrayed Lucas in some way. Like I was "cock blocking" or whatever. *siiigh* He hasn't said anything about it, but I know he was pissed because he gave me the dirtiest effing look when she took me out on the dance floor. Like I was stealing his woman or something. It was odd. O_o; But whatever. In other news, with the whole Brennen situation. My own feelings are plaguing me constantly, it's almost as if I feel bad that I feel the way I do about him.
At first, it was just harmless flirting. You know... nothing wrong with that. But we talk everyday. He always makes me smile, and he tells me I make him happy all the time. He tells me he loves me and I know he really doesn't, but it's nice to get those texts in the morning. He even seems a little protective over me on some situations, it's odd. The more we talk, the more I become attracted to him, as if we we're made for each other or something...
I know that is going a bit deep. But I dunno, it's just... certain things. To my surprise, he doesn't like skinny girls. Which is a plus for me. I'm not fat or anything, but I am a little chubby. I weigh 150, which he told me was perfect, because he hates girls who are rail thin. He doesn't like easy girls, one of the things that turns him on most if when a girl makes him wait. He's one of those boys who enjoys the chase, bahaha.
If my heart had a face, it would be smiling. ♥
Ok, so... Lucas is kind of talking to this girl, Erica. I really like her, she's a really nice girl. Really pretty too. But if anyone knows Lucas, you know he is a player. Don't get me wrong, I love the boy to death. He's a good friend, he's hilarious as shit. But he simply cannot commit to one woman. He's young, dumb, and full of cum, as some would say. He's a child, he's 21, good looking, and charming. It's how he gets away with the stunts he pulls. He finds hot dumb broads to buy into him and thus, give it up. He's already nailed this girl twice apparently, but like all the girls do, she's starting to fall for him.
So last night, we we're talking, and she asked, straight up... if he was a player. I'm sorry, but I'm not one of your bros. It's not in my job description as your friend, to lie for you. She came to me, not the other way around. So I told her the truth. I felt awful, cuz her face just fell. Apparently though, I'm not the only person to tell her either. Her cousin Adam warned her as well. Then she asked me if she was gonna get hurt, and I told her "yes". I kindly asked her if she was looking for a good time or a commitment. And she said she wanted a commitment. And sorry honey, but Lucas isn't it. She's a nice, smart girl, and I hope she doesn't continue to think she can "change" him or whatever it is these girls think they can do. But whatever, she will do whatever she wants to do in the end, right?
I mean, she would have a better chance with Ryan, than with Lucas. Plus, she just got out of a 5 year relationship, she doesn't need to be crushed again so soon. The only thing that keeps her attached is his looks. I wonder if I would be like that if I was as good looking. I sure hope not...
But I couldn't help but feel like I betrayed Lucas in some way. Like I was "cock blocking" or whatever. *siiigh* He hasn't said anything about it, but I know he was pissed because he gave me the dirtiest effing look when she took me out on the dance floor. Like I was stealing his woman or something. It was odd. O_o; But whatever. In other news, with the whole Brennen situation. My own feelings are plaguing me constantly, it's almost as if I feel bad that I feel the way I do about him.
At first, it was just harmless flirting. You know... nothing wrong with that. But we talk everyday. He always makes me smile, and he tells me I make him happy all the time. He tells me he loves me and I know he really doesn't, but it's nice to get those texts in the morning. He even seems a little protective over me on some situations, it's odd. The more we talk, the more I become attracted to him, as if we we're made for each other or something...
I know that is going a bit deep. But I dunno, it's just... certain things. To my surprise, he doesn't like skinny girls. Which is a plus for me. I'm not fat or anything, but I am a little chubby. I weigh 150, which he told me was perfect, because he hates girls who are rail thin. He doesn't like easy girls, one of the things that turns him on most if when a girl makes him wait. He's one of those boys who enjoys the chase, bahaha.
If my heart had a face, it would be smiling. ♥