Quiz stolen from kashi_naoki;
So, faithdonavan, your LiveJournal reveals...
You are... 0% unique and 19% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy writing). When it comes to friends you are normal. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are wary of trusting strangers. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is conventional.
Your overall weirdness is: 11
(The average level of weirdness is: 27.
You are weirder than 17% of other LJers.)
Find out what your weirdness level is!
I...I don't even know. I can't believe I didn't get anything for being unique, FTW? *flips quiz off* Butthole. (Yes, Rachel, because that was SO daring and original....) But the part about me being wary of strangers or whatever it totally true. I admit, I have major trust issues. But if you've known me for a long while, then you understand why.
So, I might be dissapearing or a few days again, I don't know, but more than likely, I will be. >_< Mel has Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off again and she wants me to come stay those nights with her out in the butt fuck Egypt. Plus, her dad works during the summers as a truck driver, and he usually takes her mom with him so he's not all alone on those long rides. So we're gonna have the whole entire house to ourselves, which will be pretty sweet. If I do go, I'm debating weither or not I should take my PS3 with me or not so I can play Tales of Destiny. I don't know, I mean, I want to, but the damn thing was so expensive, I wouldn't know what I would do if anything, yanno...happened to it. I'd probably punch things. Like puppies. O_o And we wouldn't want that. Because I am not a puppy puncher. But some smartass [/sarcasm] over at Sony got the grand idea of taking the option of having a memory card away, so when you play a game on the PS3, it actually saves itself onto the actual hard drive. Which means, quite obviously for those who are impaired, that if I want to play one of my games at a friends house or whatever, I can't do the conventional thing and just bring the game and the memory card it's saved on. Ooooh no, I have to bring along the whole damn console itself, or else I have to start from the beginning. *shakes head* I mean, the internal hard drive is nice and everything, because you don't have to worry about buying a memory card along with everything else, but really, they could have had slots and shit added onto it, couldn't they of? *shakes head* I don't even know. So now I'm faced with the decision of....do I take it with me when I go....or not?
Ah, I don't know. Mel wants me to meet Kipp and I don't even know. I don't know why people continuously ask me for my opinion on and my advice on what to do, and then every single goddamn time I give it to them, they just ignore what I say completely and go about their business? It gets so frustrating after so many years of having the same shit done, over and over again. I am constantly getting proven right and it's really not as satisfying as one would think. *shakes head* But then again, I have no room to talk. I can always tell you what to do for everyone else, but when it comes to myself, I'm at a complete loss. Mel hasn't spoken to Kipp, her ex boyfriend and her apparent first true love in about 2 and a half years. Well, she's talking to him again and everyone and their grandma is against it. I'm trying to just keep my mouth shut because I know she doesn't want to hear it anyway. And my words, thoughts and opinions will just go in one ear and out the other anyhow, so why even bother? She's going to do what she wants to do regardless of what everyone else thinks is for the better. But I had just sitting back and watching fuck around with him when I know in my heart she could do so much better than him.
Let's not mention the fact that Michael Jackson looks better than this dood, his ass is so big (and I am not kidding you) that you could sit a pop can on it and it would stay there. And what does he do for fun when he's not working as a bouncer as his stick in the mudd bar? He drinks beer and goes mud boggin', WEEE HEEEEWW! -_- He is the biggest redneck, well, from what I've heard anyway, and I just don't even know. He hasn't spoken to her in 2 and a half years, and he two ways her on the phone the other day when I was over there and starts talking about the gas prices. GAS PRICES! FTW?! BOOOOOOOOORING, NEXT!
I guess Mel told Megan that she thought I was a she-woman man hater the other day. *leh sigh* Because, according to Mel, during the entire course of our friendship, she has never heard me say one nice thing about a guy. (Which is a tad bit of an exaggeration, but still). It's true that I am constantly ragging on guys, and you wanna know why? Because I'm not stupid, that's why. Yes, it's true, I am bisexual. But that doesn't mean that I hate guys. I don't. There is someone whom I love (who is female) and probably will always love, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't mind having a boyfriend. I'm just like every other girl people. To have a guy to hold you, and to be so protective it's CUTE. Yes, I want that. But I'm not stupid, so I don't fall for guys easily. I get so sick and tired of people mistaking my realism for pessimism. It's not the case, and I wish people would see that. I also get told that I depend too much I looks, which is so not true. The reason why I say my "type" is the scene kids/emo kids is because that's the way I dress. It's the way, I present myself. So it's really, the only "genre" of males that will look at me. I find many different people attractive, you can ask anybody. But sometimes, I just think Mel mistakes what I say.
So for the record, I don't hate men. I'm just not stupid and gullible. My friends also think (I know, I just keep thinking of more shit, I really need to shut up...) that I expect a guy to be perfect and flawless. This is stupid to assume considering I have so many flaws myself it's ridiculous. Let's see, I'm not that very good looking, I'm chubby, I don't have perfect teeth, I'm a NERD/GEEK, I'm a smoker. I mean, the list goes on. I just know what I want, and I know that I'm going to be treated like a literal queen, and he in return will be treated like a king. I'm also not a very sexual person (someone else on this LJ could argue otherwise, HEH.) which is also a major turn off for most men. They are all so keen on busting a nut, and I'm really just...not that comfortable with guys in a sexual manner. I like to wait, which most guys don't.
I don't know how this got off onto a topic of me talking about my relationship problems, I really don't.
Let's just leave it at:
I don't hate men
I don't expect them to be perfect and flawless
I don't go only on looks
Personality is the BIGGEST thing for me, and the way a man presents himself
I am not ONLY attracted to emo/scene kids
I'm a realist, not a pessimist.
And you know what else grinds my gears? Every day I'm constantly reminded, and every single damn day I get angrier and angrier. Because I don't have a vehicle of my own anymore and it really blows. Today was Christian's (Jaime's [yumekasai] nephew) birthday party and I really wanted to go, not only because it was his party today, but you know, to visit with Yume-chan and the family. And I couldn't, because I didn't have a ride. Or, ya know....a car of my own. I hate it. I can't go the store when I want to. I can't go over to people's houses when I want to. And I hate asking for rides to places. I know people really don't want to give them to me, because they feel like a taxi even though I DO almost always give out gas money. But I don't know, I just hate asking.
It grows so tiring of having the same conversation over and over again.
Person: "So, are you working now?"
Me: "No."
Person: "....why not?"
Me: "Because I don't have a car. How am I supposed to get to work?"
Person: "Take the bus."
Me: "Um, how about...no? I live in Flint, Michigan not HICKSVILLE, MISSISSIPPI. All the drug addicts, drug dealers, homeless bums and hookers are on the damn bus and they all always wanna talk to me. And if it's not them, it's some random black dude trying to pick me up. I rode the bus all my life growing up. I'm done."
Person: ".........Oh."
YES. OK. I'm not stupid. I know I'm a loser. I'm 20 years old and not only do I not have a job, but I don't have vehicle. How sad am I? You don't have to rub it in my face anymore. It's mostly family members (of course) who do this to me, and they always act like they are oh so disappointed when they find out I'm not working. Please, spare me. If you we're so considered you would help me instead of sitting there belittling me about it. You know, my dad could help out. You know...considering all that back pay of child support he owes....could easily buy me a car. But nooooo. Although, I can almost put money on it that the day Dakota turns 16, he'll have a fucking car. -_- It's stupid and the day it happens is the day my dad gets sucker punched right in the mouth in front of the whole damn Thronson side of the family. Think I'm joking?
I almost can't wait. I keep hearing, "Oh, it won't make you feel any better" and "It's not going to change him." I know he's not going to change, but your wrong on the not making me feel better part. Even if for a second, I'll enjoy it. ^oo^;
But the reason I randomly brought up the whole car thing is because Nishara might be getting a transfer at work. She's worked down at Nutritional Services for a long while now, and she might be getting transferred to clerk for Radiology I think. The pay is way better and she'll be working more hours. Well, she had to take a computer test yesterday and I guess she failed it. The test was that she had to type a paragraph that they gave her in three minutes. And I guess she didn't pass. She called me and told me that I could have that job in a millisecond, considering I can type a whole PAGE in about 1 minutes, and a paragraph in about 15 seconds. (No joke)
And she was trying to convince me to do it and I said, "....and how exactly am I gonna get up there?"
Every single time it comes down to the fact that I don't have a vehicle. And it's pissing me right the fuck off. I don't know how she expects me to go back for more classes in the fall, I DON'T HAVE A CAR TO GET THERE. Mel asked me tonight on the phone, why I just couldn't have my grandma give me a ride there and back. This would work out fine if my grandma wasn't a very forget person. -__________- She used to do it to me all the time at school, she's leave and go to the store or over to her friends house and she'd forget I had class to go to. And she'd come home and class had started an hour ago. She has a cell phone but almost NEVER takes it with her, so I can't call and yanno, tell her to come home and get me. Or, she'd leave me at school, she'd forget she had to come back and pick me up and she'd be either watching TV or sleeping.
With a job, it's a completely different thing, I can't afford her forgetting I have work or else I get fired. I've explored my options, and....well, I don't have any. Kthxbai. Damnit, now I need a smoke. And I need to call Mel back too, ARGH.
I'm gonna go back to my game now, damnit.... *runs over and humps Leon's leg* ♥
You are... 0% unique and 19% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy writing). When it comes to friends you are normal. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are wary of trusting strangers. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is conventional.
Your overall weirdness is: 11
(The average level of weirdness is: 27.
You are weirder than 17% of other LJers.)
Find out what your weirdness level is!
I...I don't even know. I can't believe I didn't get anything for being unique, FTW? *flips quiz off* Butthole. (Yes, Rachel, because that was SO daring and original....) But the part about me being wary of strangers or whatever it totally true. I admit, I have major trust issues. But if you've known me for a long while, then you understand why.
So, I might be dissapearing or a few days again, I don't know, but more than likely, I will be. >_< Mel has Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off again and she wants me to come stay those nights with her out in the butt fuck Egypt. Plus, her dad works during the summers as a truck driver, and he usually takes her mom with him so he's not all alone on those long rides. So we're gonna have the whole entire house to ourselves, which will be pretty sweet. If I do go, I'm debating weither or not I should take my PS3 with me or not so I can play Tales of Destiny. I don't know, I mean, I want to, but the damn thing was so expensive, I wouldn't know what I would do if anything, yanno...happened to it. I'd probably punch things. Like puppies. O_o And we wouldn't want that. Because I am not a puppy puncher. But some smartass [/sarcasm] over at Sony got the grand idea of taking the option of having a memory card away, so when you play a game on the PS3, it actually saves itself onto the actual hard drive. Which means, quite obviously for those who are impaired, that if I want to play one of my games at a friends house or whatever, I can't do the conventional thing and just bring the game and the memory card it's saved on. Ooooh no, I have to bring along the whole damn console itself, or else I have to start from the beginning. *shakes head* I mean, the internal hard drive is nice and everything, because you don't have to worry about buying a memory card along with everything else, but really, they could have had slots and shit added onto it, couldn't they of? *shakes head* I don't even know. So now I'm faced with the decision of....do I take it with me when I go....or not?
Ah, I don't know. Mel wants me to meet Kipp and I don't even know. I don't know why people continuously ask me for my opinion on and my advice on what to do, and then every single goddamn time I give it to them, they just ignore what I say completely and go about their business? It gets so frustrating after so many years of having the same shit done, over and over again. I am constantly getting proven right and it's really not as satisfying as one would think. *shakes head* But then again, I have no room to talk. I can always tell you what to do for everyone else, but when it comes to myself, I'm at a complete loss. Mel hasn't spoken to Kipp, her ex boyfriend and her apparent first true love in about 2 and a half years. Well, she's talking to him again and everyone and their grandma is against it. I'm trying to just keep my mouth shut because I know she doesn't want to hear it anyway. And my words, thoughts and opinions will just go in one ear and out the other anyhow, so why even bother? She's going to do what she wants to do regardless of what everyone else thinks is for the better. But I had just sitting back and watching fuck around with him when I know in my heart she could do so much better than him.
Let's not mention the fact that Michael Jackson looks better than this dood, his ass is so big (and I am not kidding you) that you could sit a pop can on it and it would stay there. And what does he do for fun when he's not working as a bouncer as his stick in the mudd bar? He drinks beer and goes mud boggin', WEEE HEEEEWW! -_- He is the biggest redneck, well, from what I've heard anyway, and I just don't even know. He hasn't spoken to her in 2 and a half years, and he two ways her on the phone the other day when I was over there and starts talking about the gas prices. GAS PRICES! FTW?! BOOOOOOOOORING, NEXT!
I guess Mel told Megan that she thought I was a she-woman man hater the other day. *leh sigh* Because, according to Mel, during the entire course of our friendship, she has never heard me say one nice thing about a guy. (Which is a tad bit of an exaggeration, but still). It's true that I am constantly ragging on guys, and you wanna know why? Because I'm not stupid, that's why. Yes, it's true, I am bisexual. But that doesn't mean that I hate guys. I don't. There is someone whom I love (who is female) and probably will always love, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't mind having a boyfriend. I'm just like every other girl people. To have a guy to hold you, and to be so protective it's CUTE. Yes, I want that. But I'm not stupid, so I don't fall for guys easily. I get so sick and tired of people mistaking my realism for pessimism. It's not the case, and I wish people would see that. I also get told that I depend too much I looks, which is so not true. The reason why I say my "type" is the scene kids/emo kids is because that's the way I dress. It's the way, I present myself. So it's really, the only "genre" of males that will look at me. I find many different people attractive, you can ask anybody. But sometimes, I just think Mel mistakes what I say.
So for the record, I don't hate men. I'm just not stupid and gullible. My friends also think (I know, I just keep thinking of more shit, I really need to shut up...) that I expect a guy to be perfect and flawless. This is stupid to assume considering I have so many flaws myself it's ridiculous. Let's see, I'm not that very good looking, I'm chubby, I don't have perfect teeth, I'm a NERD/GEEK, I'm a smoker. I mean, the list goes on. I just know what I want, and I know that I'm going to be treated like a literal queen, and he in return will be treated like a king. I'm also not a very sexual person (someone else on this LJ could argue otherwise, HEH.) which is also a major turn off for most men. They are all so keen on busting a nut, and I'm really just...not that comfortable with guys in a sexual manner. I like to wait, which most guys don't.
I don't know how this got off onto a topic of me talking about my relationship problems, I really don't.
Let's just leave it at:
I don't hate men
I don't expect them to be perfect and flawless
I don't go only on looks
Personality is the BIGGEST thing for me, and the way a man presents himself
I am not ONLY attracted to emo/scene kids
I'm a realist, not a pessimist.
And you know what else grinds my gears? Every day I'm constantly reminded, and every single damn day I get angrier and angrier. Because I don't have a vehicle of my own anymore and it really blows. Today was Christian's (Jaime's [yumekasai] nephew) birthday party and I really wanted to go, not only because it was his party today, but you know, to visit with Yume-chan and the family. And I couldn't, because I didn't have a ride. Or, ya know....a car of my own. I hate it. I can't go the store when I want to. I can't go over to people's houses when I want to. And I hate asking for rides to places. I know people really don't want to give them to me, because they feel like a taxi even though I DO almost always give out gas money. But I don't know, I just hate asking.
It grows so tiring of having the same conversation over and over again.
Person: "So, are you working now?"
Me: "No."
Person: "....why not?"
Me: "Because I don't have a car. How am I supposed to get to work?"
Person: "Take the bus."
Me: "Um, how about...no? I live in Flint, Michigan not HICKSVILLE, MISSISSIPPI. All the drug addicts, drug dealers, homeless bums and hookers are on the damn bus and they all always wanna talk to me. And if it's not them, it's some random black dude trying to pick me up. I rode the bus all my life growing up. I'm done."
Person: ".........Oh."
YES. OK. I'm not stupid. I know I'm a loser. I'm 20 years old and not only do I not have a job, but I don't have vehicle. How sad am I? You don't have to rub it in my face anymore. It's mostly family members (of course) who do this to me, and they always act like they are oh so disappointed when they find out I'm not working. Please, spare me. If you we're so considered you would help me instead of sitting there belittling me about it. You know, my dad could help out. You know...considering all that back pay of child support he owes....could easily buy me a car. But nooooo. Although, I can almost put money on it that the day Dakota turns 16, he'll have a fucking car. -_- It's stupid and the day it happens is the day my dad gets sucker punched right in the mouth in front of the whole damn Thronson side of the family. Think I'm joking?
I almost can't wait. I keep hearing, "Oh, it won't make you feel any better" and "It's not going to change him." I know he's not going to change, but your wrong on the not making me feel better part. Even if for a second, I'll enjoy it. ^oo^;
But the reason I randomly brought up the whole car thing is because Nishara might be getting a transfer at work. She's worked down at Nutritional Services for a long while now, and she might be getting transferred to clerk for Radiology I think. The pay is way better and she'll be working more hours. Well, she had to take a computer test yesterday and I guess she failed it. The test was that she had to type a paragraph that they gave her in three minutes. And I guess she didn't pass. She called me and told me that I could have that job in a millisecond, considering I can type a whole PAGE in about 1 minutes, and a paragraph in about 15 seconds. (No joke)
And she was trying to convince me to do it and I said, "....and how exactly am I gonna get up there?"
Every single time it comes down to the fact that I don't have a vehicle. And it's pissing me right the fuck off. I don't know how she expects me to go back for more classes in the fall, I DON'T HAVE A CAR TO GET THERE. Mel asked me tonight on the phone, why I just couldn't have my grandma give me a ride there and back. This would work out fine if my grandma wasn't a very forget person. -__________- She used to do it to me all the time at school, she's leave and go to the store or over to her friends house and she'd forget I had class to go to. And she'd come home and class had started an hour ago. She has a cell phone but almost NEVER takes it with her, so I can't call and yanno, tell her to come home and get me. Or, she'd leave me at school, she'd forget she had to come back and pick me up and she'd be either watching TV or sleeping.
With a job, it's a completely different thing, I can't afford her forgetting I have work or else I get fired. I've explored my options, and....well, I don't have any. Kthxbai. Damnit, now I need a smoke. And I need to call Mel back too, ARGH.
I'm gonna go back to my game now, damnit.... *runs over and humps Leon's leg* ♥