New Wallpaper and other excitements...

[faithcb]

The Dawnster herself made this glorious backround for me.

(Does anyone wonder how Vampires can't see their reflection and yet they show up in pics?)

Thanks, like... times a million billion.

Hm... Current events... which are current. (That didn't make one bit of sense did it?)

What happened yesterday and today (so far)October 30th

Comments

[faithcb]

Um... Yeah... I've been hanging out around him too much lately, huh? *jokes* We should so have a girl's night... kick the guys out of the house or whatever...

Well, obviously... 'Cause pic of me and Angel right there... I wonder how he's doin'

No, I don't like it. I freakin' love it!

Let me know...

Good conclusion over all, I must say. Heck, I'm not sure I'm ready for this. It has to be the most frightening thing in the world right now... seriously. I mean... in 5 months plus I'm gonna be having a baby boy... and it's this whole other life who looks up to me... Who's gonna depend on me. For food.. love... everything. It's really scary.... the more I think about it. It's so easy to create this life. (You know... once you get past the whole hurricane of emotions and months of waiting) But, the thing is... I don't know how I'm gonna do. - Everyone keeps saying I'm gonna be a good mother... and I know I can try... I'm sure at one point Noah's going to resent me. And I haven't really had the greatest role models... (Excluding Giles and Joyce, Of course) - The point is... I'm scared over... everything right now... Until I was pregnant with Noah I only had to look after me... and I tried not to care about anyone else, but now I have to... *gets teary* And I'm so scared, Dawnie.

*after a few minutes of tears returns to the computer*

I had to tell him to go away.

*admits* Yeah...

[dawnie_summers_]

No such thing as hanging around with your boyfriend too much.

As for having a girls night, all for it...just not within the next week...too much going on, packing and stuff...

You could call him, Faith.

*laughs* All good.

I will.

Faith, you don't have to be scared, you really don't. You aren't alone in this. I promise. I know this is like, huge, and like you said everyone keeps saying you'll be great. Believe them. Believe in yourself. Besides, you've always given me great advice, haven't you? You can do this. And yeah, sure, he'll probably resent you at one time or another, but I think that's just the way that goes...kids tend to resent parents when they don't get their way, or parents refuse to understand things...Ask Buffy about that one...trust me...even our mom had moments we werent so fond of her... But even then, you have an advantage over Mom...you have Xand with you, two parents for Noah to get annoyed at. *smirks* Seriously though, he's gonna adore you. You'll be a good mom. You're a good friend to me, and amazingly loving and supportive girlfriend to Xander, right? *smiles*

Did it actually work?

so why is this the first I've heard of this?

[faithcb]

Glad you think so.

Okay.

Yeah, I could... He called a little while ago... remember?

Good.

Still scared... but trying to take you advice. And, God... I know how lucky I am to have Xand with me... a month or two ago.... I don't think I could be doing this without him. I only hope I'm an amazingly loving and supportive girlfriend to Xander. *laughs*

Yup... he did listen. Good boy.

*clears throat* I'm not sure.

[dawnie_summers_]

I'd be the first to admit most days all I really want is to see Mike, so why would I tell you you're spending to much time with Xander?

Yesterday, you mean? Doesn't mean you can't call him just to talk, ask how he's doing, if you want to.

Good. Take it. Breathe too, also helpful. And you are...I'm sure he thinks so, especially with everything you guys have gone though.

*snickers*

No?

[faithcb]

LOL. True.

D, I can't call Angel just to talk... That so doesn't work... We communicate by a few punches, maybe. Every so often he used to visit me in prison. But, the talk thing... We do it strictly for the guilt trips.

Yeah?

*laughs*

No.

[dawnie_summers_]

I thought so. *laughs*

One word for you: Stubborn. You, Angel, Connor, Spike....the list could go on...How else are you supposed to know how Angel's doing with you here and him in LA? I guess you could ask Fred to find out for you...but I dont know if she'd exactly want to talk to him right now anyway...

You think otherwise?

So how long have you been hanging out with Eli again, 'cause last I heard, you didnt really want to have anything to do with the Watcher's Council...

[faithcb]

How else are you supposed to know how Angel's doing with you here and him in LA?

Intuition?

I don't think Fred is on speaking terms with him on account that he killed her guy.

Not really.

So not wanting to discuss this.

[dawnie_summers_]

I dont think it works of that far of a distance....

I don't think so either...Maybe Wes talks to him? I know Connor doesn't.

Faith, I'm not going to tell anyone. And your refusal to talk about it? All it's done has got me curious that there's something going on...

[faithcb]

Damn...

Maybe. Wes is less stuffy.

I know. No! Nothing is going on... Nothing!

[dawnie_summers_]

Compared to when he was a Watcher? *laughs* no doubt about that. Still makes Giles look insanely cool most of the time though.

Uh-huh...right... Will you talk to me about it later at home?

[faithcb]

Uh-huh... Believe me... Giles is not half as stuffy as some watchers.

*sighs* Fine...

[dawnie_summers_]

Oh, I know. Just, how many girls think their dad is cool?

Thank you.

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[faithcb]

You're asking the wrong gal. Haven't seen mine since I was three... Although I did think he was cool then...

Don't mention it.

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[dawnie_summers_]

Fair enough. I dont think generally most girls do...except maybe when they're really small...but then, you think your dads can do absolutely anything. *smiles softly*

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[faithcb]

Yeah... I mean... One thing I remember about my dad is... he could make a mean omlette... and he used to give me a lot of piggy back rides...

[dawnie_summers_]

Very cool *smiles* Most of my memories of my actual dad arent really happy ones, there's a few, but mostly just arguments with my mom, and not being around a lot....