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Life always manages to take interesting turns when I least expect it. I suppose I probably should expect them to happen, but just when I think things are going in the right direction, it usually backfires and I'm left back at square one. I've escaped Newport for a few days, just to get away from all the drama and bullshit from everything and everyone around there. I need to clear my head. I didn't even bring my computer home with me (usage only from moms) just so that I have no reason to waste time carousing through the internet. I need to focus. Need to get life on track. I went for a run today, I'll probably go for another one in a little while. I'll work on transforming my body because right now it seems to be the only thing I can control. I'm going to find a way to get into my new house. Its been decided. For February I plan on sending my current landlord the rest of the money owed for the rest of my lease so that way I know exactly how much money I have. Everything I make from there on out will be profit. Then when the timing is right, I'll find a way to get into the new apartment. My mental sanity depends on it.
Its funny how, the only thing I have left to really really believe in, is my silly tarot card readings, its the only thing right now that is on track. So to be honest, if that's the only thing that makes sense, I'm going to go with it. Weird how that works out. I guess its just one of those things that I'll have to wait and see how it plays out, and hope to god I'll know what to do when the timing is right.
I kinda like not talking to anyone. I basically am not even answering my phone, and I like it that way. No pressure, no drama, finally just some quiet.
I'm going to go write and read for a while. Lets hope this all clears up soon.
Its funny how, the only thing I have left to really really believe in, is my silly tarot card readings, its the only thing right now that is on track. So to be honest, if that's the only thing that makes sense, I'm going to go with it. Weird how that works out. I guess its just one of those things that I'll have to wait and see how it plays out, and hope to god I'll know what to do when the timing is right.
I kinda like not talking to anyone. I basically am not even answering my phone, and I like it that way. No pressure, no drama, finally just some quiet.
I'm going to go write and read for a while. Lets hope this all clears up soon.