The evilness of me!
Right I have decided not to do the next big show as I need a break from it and from some of the people - but that is fine because I am rehearsing for smaller concerts and things. However, it doesn't stop me getting annoyed or a little jealous about everyone doing the other show, which I know is pathetic, but it really put me into a bad mood last night so much so mixed with other annoyances I said the following to Kevin when he said he loved me "No you don't, you just don't have time to find anyone else!"
Now that was harsh, even coming from me. What would possess me to say such a thing in response to him, I don't crave drama that much that I would intentionally say that - but obviously it still came out of my mouth. I said it with such venom that the shock of hearing myself say it meant I just lay in the dark quietly until I fell asleep as I had nothing else to say! I have no idea how or why he puts up with me, maybe I am the reason why he works every waking hour. I am a useless girlfriend!
Now that was harsh, even coming from me. What would possess me to say such a thing in response to him, I don't crave drama that much that I would intentionally say that - but obviously it still came out of my mouth. I said it with such venom that the shock of hearing myself say it meant I just lay in the dark quietly until I fell asleep as I had nothing else to say! I have no idea how or why he puts up with me, maybe I am the reason why he works every waking hour. I am a useless girlfriend!