(no subject)
you need to part with the notion that everyone is watching. you need to cut this paranoid-self-pity-bullshit out of your life already. the truth is, of course people will see you, of course they will. but what makes you better [orworse] than those other fat bastards, those other disgusting, shuffling pedestrians. it will take a second, and they would have already forgotten your face. so shut up, and grow up. you are not special. you are not special.
argh!
argh!