...i hate days...and nights..
I've been thinking more than anything lately and i hate it....I miss him more than anything and its /killing me....=(...I hope things turn out the way i hoped and am hoping for...I'm actually saving up for a car..and my mom is actually going to help me..WOW..thats a incredible shocker... I feel like crap...I'm sick of crying...but i don't think thats going to change for me anytime soon....My biggest mistake this morning was reading letters and making everything so much worse for me...But i can't help it ...I turn to them to crack a smile and cry some more.... ------sigh-------....i hope this is a situation where Things will get better will actually be true..and he will become my happyness again....=-/....I've upset myself so much i can't really eat ....cause i'll feel the need to just puke...I dunno....i just hope things work out the way i plan....i don't wish on things but this is something i am wishing on ...I'm going to try my best to make that wish come true......yeah...i'm gonna go put towels away and wash my face....and get a cd....