I love you til the end of time, but I have to do this on my own so here I go...
I can't believe I'll be a senior in college. It weirds me out. I feel as though I should be 18 years old, not 21. I registered for the GRE today and started requesting applications to grad school. I haven't decided if i'm going right after school or not, but i'm trying to leave my options open. I plan on applying for the Fulbright scholarship which lets me travel to any country in the world to do research which would be amazing. I'll also apply to teach abroad. I figure where i'm supposed to be is where I'll be accepted. I'm not going to lie..all of this stresses me out majorly. I'm not ready to be a grown-up. I also want to make my senior year count. I don't want to be so consumed with the future that I miss out on making memories. I'm one of those people that becomes so focused on the future that I miss out on the present, but this year my goal is not to do that . I want to enjoy every moment and just be happy. This song pretty much sums it up:
This is when the wall comes down
This is when I give myself to every inch of me that says
it's time to go
The voice is clear, but not alone
doubt had made my head it's home
And I can hardly hear myself explode
Someone tell me something good,
Something I can really use
Here I go, say goodbye to everything
I know, here I go, I love you till the end of time
I have to do this on my one so here, here I go
On the edge of everything
the start, the end, the in between
but somewhere trough my fear I know I'm fine
Nothing like the way it's been,
an open door I've never seen
And I can't help but wonder what's inside
someone tell me something good
something I can really use
Here I go, say goodbye to everything
I know, here I go, I love you till the end of time
I have to do this on my one so here, here I go
Sure I guess I must be strong
But what if I am just very wrong
what if I don't know
where I belong
Here I go, say goodbye to everything
I know, here I go, I love you till the end of time
I have to do this on my one so here, here I go
This is when the wall comes down
This is when I give myself to every inch of me that says
it's time to go
The voice is clear, but not alone
doubt had made my head it's home
And I can hardly hear myself explode
Someone tell me something good,
Something I can really use
Here I go, say goodbye to everything
I know, here I go, I love you till the end of time
I have to do this on my one so here, here I go
On the edge of everything
the start, the end, the in between
but somewhere trough my fear I know I'm fine
Nothing like the way it's been,
an open door I've never seen
And I can't help but wonder what's inside
someone tell me something good
something I can really use
Here I go, say goodbye to everything
I know, here I go, I love you till the end of time
I have to do this on my one so here, here I go
Sure I guess I must be strong
But what if I am just very wrong
what if I don't know
where I belong
Here I go, say goodbye to everything
I know, here I go, I love you till the end of time
I have to do this on my one so here, here I go