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I'm in this weird state where I feel like there just exists this layer of silence around me. I have my LSAT on Saturday and a midterm in my hardest class tomorrow. My teacher told me not even to study for the midterm, and that scares the shit out of me. I can't explain the level of anxiety I have. I have this feeling like I'm just going to fail everything. And, believe it or not, the multitudes of people telling me I'm going to do well as usual, doesn't make me feel better, it just makes me feel like I'm not entitled to my anxiety. give me my anxiety dammnit! it's all I got! lol. Honestly, I don't know how I'll do. I've never taken an LSAT before. Well, I've taken about 7 past tests in this last week, but who knows how i'll really do.
I feel like I'm neglecting everyone. I hardly talk to my friends and I apologize. John has had this sinus infection for three months and I just feel absolutely helpless, but like there has to be something I can do to help. Can we talk about how much I hate our government? Why don't we have health care for everyone? Oh yeah... boot straps, everyone should be able to pull themselves up... if they "deserve" it, that is. Doria tells me I'm neglecting her. In fact, she is on my bed mewing right now, telling me how much I'm neglecting her. poor kitty. i think our house is harboring stress right now. Alina and I just look like wrecks. Why does this always happen during school? Every personal problem has to hit exactly when there is the most stress.
That was a weird eclectic rant. I don't think I've even posted in here in months. I think I need to start meditating or something before I give myself an ulcer/heartattack/anxietyattack/myheartexplodesfrombeatingsofastallthefuckingtime! okay, back to take another practice lsat.
p.s. I am getting sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo drunk saturday night!!!
I feel like I'm neglecting everyone. I hardly talk to my friends and I apologize. John has had this sinus infection for three months and I just feel absolutely helpless, but like there has to be something I can do to help. Can we talk about how much I hate our government? Why don't we have health care for everyone? Oh yeah... boot straps, everyone should be able to pull themselves up... if they "deserve" it, that is. Doria tells me I'm neglecting her. In fact, she is on my bed mewing right now, telling me how much I'm neglecting her. poor kitty. i think our house is harboring stress right now. Alina and I just look like wrecks. Why does this always happen during school? Every personal problem has to hit exactly when there is the most stress.
That was a weird eclectic rant. I don't think I've even posted in here in months. I think I need to start meditating or something before I give myself an ulcer/heartattack/anxietyattack/myheartexplodesfrombeatingsofastallthefuckingtime! okay, back to take another practice lsat.
p.s. I am getting sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo drunk saturday night!!!