I'm really bored
It's been forever since I have posted in this journal, let alone any journal at all. They've lost thier appeal. They have no point. Why do I wanna get involved with some seneseless, mind numbing bullshit? Oh yeah, that's right, I don't :)
It's Ed birthday today. It was good. It was low key. I baked him a cake, decorated it very dyslexicly and made a funky fuck dinner. It was good. His present comes later but I guess that isn't really anything that anyone *here* needs nor wants to know. He is such a good guy. I lurves him. I asked him today what he wanted for his birthday and he looked at me, held my hand and said "Baby, I already have what I want for my birthday.. I have you". It wasn't one of those bullshit things either, if that makes any sense. Like he meant it. You could just tell. I don't know how to explain it. Neither Ed nor I are mushy gushy people.. infact.. that shit sorta grosses us both out. The last thing either of us want is some mushy garbage. We're real. We want real shit. That's easy enough isn't it? I do feel bad for my cum stain though.. he has this cough that just won't go away. He's had to go to the doctor twice now. He even had to go today. How lame is that.. going to the doctor on your birthday. I'm sorry.. but that just sucks balls.
I met Russ's doctor the other day. She is also Andrew and Brett's doctor. I took them in to get them some help for OCD/Depression/ADHD. Like Mike would ever do it himself -insert eye rolling here- She's a nice lady. I like her a bit more then I like Ed's doc, Shawna. She didn't have any good drug rep things though *lol* Ed and I were dissapointed. We've fuckin been at interfaith like 3 or 4 times since the 11th. It's ridiuclous. Next month is gonna be worse. We've got 3 appointments, on three different days, in Seattle. One on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. I think Ed and I are just going to end up staying at a little bed and breakfast for Tuesday and Wednesday night. The fuckin appointment on Wednesday is at 8:30 am. What sorta bullshit is that?! We both about shit ourselves when we heard that. That is the LATEST this clinic runs too. UGH. The only appointments we care about are the Monday and Thursday ones but I guess we really should find out why he has had some higher cholesterol. *shurgs* No worries.
I'm bored. The boys are doing good. Gaper is growing like all fucking hell. He's already grown 1.25 inches since he's been here and it has only been a little over like 2 weeks.. er.. maybe it's been longer. I don't remember. I dunno.. it doesn't matter.. He's growing like a fucking weed. I think Stumpy is sick again, but that wouldn't be anything new. That poor guy has had a rough life. I wish his previous owners would have taken better care of him. And they wonder why he ate that other dragon's leg. I would have done the same damn thing!
Jamie/Russ/Kai/what the fuck ever thier name is.. took me off thier friends list again. It's comical. Obviously he wrote something about Mom, Ed or I. It's too transparent but I'm not even worried about it. It's too easy to detach now. I wish it wasn't, but it is. Does he even care that I love him like a brother? I doubt it but I am not going to cry over spilled milk. It ain't nothin' but a chicken wang and it ain't nuthin' I can change either. It is dissapointing though. I will say that. I was so excited to have "my brother" back. I was so excited. I told everyone. But I guess that only made me a fool and made me look naive. That's okay. It's a learning curve. I just learned that no matter what anyone says, don't believe them. I learned that in the words of Gloria Gaynor "I will survive". I have before and I will again. I guess what kills me is the mother fuckin lying. I have never lied to him. I was so honest. I was up front. I told him where I stood, what I felt and how it was. I guess that old saying "Treat others how you'd want to be treated" doesn't apply in this situation. I wanted to go to the Skagit Tuplip Fields this month with him. I wanted some pictures of he and Ed and I together. Oh well. All I can do is all I can do. I tried.. at least I can take that to the grave.. I gave it my best and I tried. I admited my mistakes, I apologized and I loved. I tried.
eBay is doin pretty damn good if I do say so myself. I am a bit upset though as our "power seller" status was removed today. It was Ed's and my fault. We let our sales flunk out for 2 months. We took a break. We were stupid *lol* It's all gravy though.. It didn't take us that long to get it in the first place so it won't take long to get it back. I'm not worried about it. Are you? LOL
Man, Ed and I watched "Fun with Dick and Jane" last night. It was farkin good.. funny and good but nothing like either of us expected. It was more adultish and more corporate then either of us expected Jim Carrey to do. It was cool though. Yesterday/last night was nice. Ed and I had a movie night. We watched Elizabethtown, Fun with Dick and Jane and then this movie called Stay. Neither of us understood Stay. We want Mom to order it off Netflix to give us her impression. It is really weird for neither Ed nor I to get a movie. We're usually pretty good at that but this one had us goin "huh?". Speaking of movies, have any of you seen Kill Bill? Either of them actually. Doesn't matter. Okay, well you Buck? The guy that says "My name is Buck and I am here to fuck".. you know his truck? The pussy wagon? lmao.. Ed bought me a "Pussy Wagon" keychain for my truck keys off eBay and it got here yesterday. I am in heaven. They sent us two by mistake. So we paypaled them some extra monies to cover it and now we have one for each of our keys and I can get rid of Ed's white trash Dale Ernhardt #3 keychain. What is it with men and Dale? The guy I bought my truck from was into him too. I've met so many persons, men and women, who are into him and Dale Jr. I don't get it but then I am not into Nascar. Although I will say that because of Ed, I am totally into Monster Truck shows and things like Mud bogging, tractor pulls, burn out contests, etc. We went to a Monster Truck show on the 1st in Lynden and I haven't had that much fun in a long time. That show was fucking ridiculous. Captain USA was there and omg, I lost my voice by the end of the night. It was a fucking BLAST.
Okay, well, I think I am done for the night. This is the most I have written in like ever. So yeah.. this should satisfy me for a bit. Whatcha think?
Goodnight, World.