A new year....
Wow, I have to say this past year has been my worst and best...
Innocence and trust lost...hearts broken, the harsh reality of betrayal, and the growing pains of life.
It's something I've become used to, being let down, promises made and then broken, people saying they'll do things, but never do...and slowly I've realized I do the same thing. Lately it's hard to look in the mirror...having that voice in the back of your head saying "it will never get better" and constantly fighting it, it's become an everyday thing. You'd think I'd be used to it. Sure, I have a heavy feeling things won't change, but theres also this great feeling knowing things will. I walk around with both everyday, I don't care whats going on, the problems never leave you. I've aquired some great friends this year, gotten closer with others, I am a very blessed person, people that love me for me and are here for me no matter what. I've also realized some flaws of mine, it;s hard to be honest with yourself...but you have to be. At times I feel like where I was 3 years ago...and I hate it. Growing up is such a hard, sad, beautiful thing.
But, I have to get back to 2005
Highlights:
turning 17
getting my first job
getting my awesome camera!
meeting Tommy
WaRpEd ToUr, truly an awesome memory
Hampton Beach with the girls....so much fun
all the dates and just good times with Tommy
meeting the "gang" and having good times with them
my brother coming back home
theres so much in this past year...those are just some of the highlights
but there was also the times that made it the worst, and those I won't write about.
I don't feel like writing much more....2005 was a great year, and I hope 2006 will be even better!
and to all my friends, I love you all <3<3