Sep 07, 2006 22:54
My friend is getting married. She's 17. I don't know why she's getting married at 17. She hasn't told anyone that she's pregnant, but I'm not ruling that one out. In either situation (pregnant or not) I don't know if I agree or disagree with her decision. Usually you need to do stupid things to grow. I dont know if getting married counts. Or what. I'm sure she realizes how serious this is.
I think when you're that age, and so completely in love, and getting married, you're fucking overjoyed. Maybe scared shitless, but also extremely happy. She seems neither. It kind of confuses me because if you're not getting married that young because your crazy in love... then what the hell are you doing?
At this point in my life, I don't even know if I believe in love. Like love-love. Like the love I thought I felt for someone for years and years. It just feels like it was... hormones... mixed with too many insecurities. But at that point in time it was love and if anyone questioned that it was off with their head.
I guess that's how they must feel. Except I don't get that vibe from her. The whole I'm so happy to share the rest of my life with this person one. Not there. I guess your conscience never lets you fully enjoy whatever stupid thing you're about to embarck upon... but still. She should be showing atleast some sort of excitement.
It just hurts to see someone set themselves up for it. Which I can tell happens more often than not.
In conclusion I realize, it hurts to see her do it, but I support her. I did really stupid things, and I got the best possible thing out of them. Sometimes you need to bang your head against the wall for a bit. It's good to learn things for yourself even if it's the hard way. In my experience, you become a more complete person out of it.