well, that sucks

[fairybrat]

I got an email today telling me I didn't get the job I was hoping for next year. So that sucks. Unfortunately too, thinking about that has caused the stress headache that i've had for the past few days to come back. I thought going out last night helped that. Last night was fun... I went out with Chelsea and Ryan and then we were joined by various people throughout the night, including Tonya whom I haven't seen in forever. Chels and Ryan seem to be getting more comfortable with eachother which is really good. HAHA, she even shared her drink with him, before we got yelled at for sharing... lol. aw, well, whatever! Today is a bit of a downer day, but I just need to push through it and I'll be fine. I'm hoping that Ryan will maybe come over after work and hang out and watch Brokeback Mountain with me. I could really go for some good chocolate cake and a maid to clean up the clothes bomb that has seemed to explode in my room.

Mom called me around noon today, my aunt's evaluation went really well. I guess she was having one of the best days she's had in years. (well that I've heard of her having in years.) Mom said that and then was like, well, maybe not year. And I told her for me, it is years since I missed a whole year of my aunt's life. Its so stupid, it sounds like she's a baby. But when someone's consciousness is in decline, a year is a really long time. A lot is lost, just like in a child a year is a long time because a lot is gained.

And so it goes... I'm just gonna keep plugging along.