36 days sober...
I just had an emotional breakdown. Like what the hell am I gonna do. I'm in such a bad position. Like I deserve this. I do. I really do.
You find out who your friends are. At a time like this it's really kind of surprising to find out I don't have any really and the ones I do I would have never expected. It's just really frustrating to think I wasted a lot of years on a lot of people that wouldn't do the same shit for me. And it hurts. I don't want to be self centered.
Blah.
I got to hang out with my dad today. I love my dad. He makes everybodys day better by just existing. Thank goodness for him.
Genci got into a bad car accident almost 2 weeks ago and broke both his legs and an eye socket. He was driving to Peoria at 4:30 in the morning...your guess is as good as mine. Stupid. People be drinking and driving all around me and I can only now see that it's no good. It's not worth it.
I mowed my front yard today. I'm moving out in September, don't know where yet but I can't stand the OLD STONER ROOMIE. I've just about had enough of my share of Catrina Sackett. TYVM.
You find out who your friends are. At a time like this it's really kind of surprising to find out I don't have any really and the ones I do I would have never expected. It's just really frustrating to think I wasted a lot of years on a lot of people that wouldn't do the same shit for me. And it hurts. I don't want to be self centered.
Blah.
I got to hang out with my dad today. I love my dad. He makes everybodys day better by just existing. Thank goodness for him.
Genci got into a bad car accident almost 2 weeks ago and broke both his legs and an eye socket. He was driving to Peoria at 4:30 in the morning...your guess is as good as mine. Stupid. People be drinking and driving all around me and I can only now see that it's no good. It's not worth it.
I mowed my front yard today. I'm moving out in September, don't know where yet but I can't stand the OLD STONER ROOMIE. I've just about had enough of my share of Catrina Sackett. TYVM.