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i have no good excuses. i have pity worth behavior. but good excuses. none. my life is shitty because i make it that way. i am in the postion i am because i made it that way. i have nobody to rely on because i made it that way. i have no friends to trust because i broke all the rules. i focused too much on every mistake i made. every mistake my parents made. to end up the way i am. i feel like a failure. but i am not one. i feel like an idiot because i treat myself as one. i act stupid because i can. i feel like nothing because i believe myself to be nothing. am a bad person? i don't know anymore.