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I've always been Ms. Independent, which I find is a real turn off to men because it made them feel less manless I guess or useless (don't you love the things I figure out?) but I can't stop really being this way. But I did realize that Nate made me feel like I needed him, like I needed a "man". No other man ever made me feel like that, ever. No other man made me feel like a man has a role and a female has a role. I've never believed in roles. I always thought, and still do, that I can do anything a man can do, but when he was around he was the "man". He would never let me get away with the things I do, he would do the man stuff and if I even tried, he just took over. My roommate made me see this because I do everything and he would just sit there and watch me. I guess this makes me the alpha dog and why his and I's relationship would never had work if we stayed together. So I guess I need to find someone, if that's even possible, that can make me feel like I can let go of being Ms. Can do everything and don't need a man, eh?