Anger and Frustration
I had a huge blow up at Nick this afternoon. Abby wouldn't take her usual afternoon nap and I kept feeling the frustration building inside of me until I almost spanked Abby and instead, Nick grabbed my arms and held them behind my back while I fought him struggling and kicking- trying to get loose. But it was like one of those Chinese fingertraps, the harder you pull the tighter it grips on. He eventually threw me onto the bed and pinned me down while I screamed into a pillow and cried...and cried...and cried. I was so angry and frustrated that Abby wouldn't take a nap and it just blew up into this whole dramatic thing.
Nick (being the nice hubby that he is) let my arms go after I stop resisting and left me on the bed to cry some more while he made me a nice cup of tea. After the tea was ready to drink, he bought it in to me and I sat on the bed drinking tea and taking some deep breaths. I felt a little calmer afterwards, so I took to the sofa to read some of my book and Nick asked if I was okay. I thought that I was but then I started crying again and he asked me I was upset. I just felt so angry with myself and I hate being a defective member of society. He gave me a hug and I went back to reading. My book is getting really good and I'm so tired after the whole adrenaline rush this afternoon..so I think I'm going to hit the hay.
Nick (being the nice hubby that he is) let my arms go after I stop resisting and left me on the bed to cry some more while he made me a nice cup of tea. After the tea was ready to drink, he bought it in to me and I sat on the bed drinking tea and taking some deep breaths. I felt a little calmer afterwards, so I took to the sofa to read some of my book and Nick asked if I was okay. I thought that I was but then I started crying again and he asked me I was upset. I just felt so angry with myself and I hate being a defective member of society. He gave me a hug and I went back to reading. My book is getting really good and I'm so tired after the whole adrenaline rush this afternoon..so I think I'm going to hit the hay.