it hurts you so much, its like choking down the embers of a great blaze

[fairwell]

its been a while. im not to good with this whole lj thing. i try tho. its been nothin but school, volleyball, food, and sleep. interesting huh. this week was so long, and hot. it's friday, finally. hopefully something worth while will go down this weekend, i cant take another sober night, its been a while. i need a fuckin beer. ha. latley i have been real blahh. don't realy feel like doing much, i went out once this week. gerard and beam, thanks for that nice night on the town ha. summer is offically over, since the other day. even tho it was a horrible summer, i miss it. i have to let it go, its over. ha i tend to hold on to things to much, or to tight. i need to stop that. ugh, smokin is killing me, i feel like on old lady with cigarette cough. it sucks. i hate it. i think i need to stop, one day i will i promise.
for now, till later
allie boo

now were back to the middle of day that starts it off, i cant begin to let you know just what im feelin, and now these red ones make me fly and the blue ones help me fall, and i think ill blow my brains against the ceiling, and as the fragments of my skull begin to fall, fall on your tounge like pixydust just think happy thoughts, well fly home, you and i