My heart only breaks when its beating...
I never seem to get things right...i try so hard to make things work and i end up fucking shit up for myself...i just want to be happy...i dont want to feel my heart floating around in my stomach...i dont want to feel like my chest is empty...i dont want to feel sick...i dont want to be sad...i dont want to be the reason for heartbreak or dissapointment...i want to be comfortable with my life without letting my emotions get the better of me...i want to feel like my life is going somewhere...i want to know what he thinks of me now...i dont want to wait...i dont want to rush...i just want to be without caring but i cant...its not how i work...and it never works out that way...someone always gets hurt...or i create a situation for myself and i just feel crushed in the end...right now i just want to go to sleep and wake up to everything being ok...knowing what im supposed to do and say...and just be happy...