For those awaiting perfume from me: a general update.
Hey everyone,
Since I can no longer post in Sin & Salvation, I figured posting updates here is the best way I can inform the largest number of people at once. All future updates will be posted here from now on, with cross-posting to S&S should I regain my rightful posting access.
I apologize, again, for the tremendous delay; it's really unacceptable that so many of you have been waiting for so very long for perfume I promised you and which you sent me perfume or money in exchange for. I'm also very sorry that I have been difficult to reach at times and slow to respond to attempts at contact. I have been getting a tremendous, overwhelming number of emails and pms that I'm not able to handle and respond to in my current state, though I am determined to get back to everyone eventually, individually and thoroughly. I know that's not encouraging news for right now, but I can't promise anything else and I want to be completely honest about my situation.
My health has declined further, to the point that I am, as I was back in April and early May, nearly completely dysfunctional, with at most an hour or two a week during which I can function enough to complete even simple tasks like housekeeping, cooking, driving, or packaging up perfume. I am in a desperate and nearly hopeless situation right now. My pain is quite bad, though not the worst it's been; the more serious problem is that I immensely exhausted 99% of the time, no matter how much or how little I sleep. I nearly always feel like I just want to keep sleeping, and some days I sleep 18 hours in a day. The meds that I'm currently taking for my pain only make me more sedated.
Worse, I don't wake up to my alarms, no matter how many I set, and when I am 'awake', I have virtually no energy. I've driven once in the past two weeks, and I almost fell asleep while driving. My roommate helps when he can and does some errands for me, but he's very busy with a full courseload of summer classes, with papers and tests basically every other day, and unfortunately he's just not able to help me with my perfume backlog, for the most part - it's not work that he's good at. This is work that I need to do.
I'm hoping that by Friday or Saturday I'll have some meds that will improve my mental state so that I'm actually able to function, and that I'll be able to power through the perfume backlog. I know that two days of really good days of hard, continuous work will enable me to finish sending everything out, and I'm hoping that comes this weekend once I'm on better meds.
I don't want to make promises I can't keep, but as I have always said in my updates - I take this situation very seriously and I am committed to sending everyone the promised perfume. I have all the promised perfume, and it has all been set aside for each person. I am embarrassed, depressed, and upset about my slowness and I wish more than anything that I could fulfill my obligations to you all more quickly. I think about this situation all the time, nearly constantly, and despite everything - I still feel confident that I CAN get everything shipped out.
I hope to have more hopeful news soon, with some shipping updates, and will post as soon again as soon as I do - and I hope that will be in a few days. I've disabled comments bc I don't wish to deal with anymore drama and unfortunately, there is nothing anyone can say that would improve this awful situation. Everyone's who's been supportive or even just patiently quiet - thank you. I appreciate it tremendously.
Since I can no longer post in Sin & Salvation, I figured posting updates here is the best way I can inform the largest number of people at once. All future updates will be posted here from now on, with cross-posting to S&S should I regain my rightful posting access.
I apologize, again, for the tremendous delay; it's really unacceptable that so many of you have been waiting for so very long for perfume I promised you and which you sent me perfume or money in exchange for. I'm also very sorry that I have been difficult to reach at times and slow to respond to attempts at contact. I have been getting a tremendous, overwhelming number of emails and pms that I'm not able to handle and respond to in my current state, though I am determined to get back to everyone eventually, individually and thoroughly. I know that's not encouraging news for right now, but I can't promise anything else and I want to be completely honest about my situation.
My health has declined further, to the point that I am, as I was back in April and early May, nearly completely dysfunctional, with at most an hour or two a week during which I can function enough to complete even simple tasks like housekeeping, cooking, driving, or packaging up perfume. I am in a desperate and nearly hopeless situation right now. My pain is quite bad, though not the worst it's been; the more serious problem is that I immensely exhausted 99% of the time, no matter how much or how little I sleep. I nearly always feel like I just want to keep sleeping, and some days I sleep 18 hours in a day. The meds that I'm currently taking for my pain only make me more sedated.
Worse, I don't wake up to my alarms, no matter how many I set, and when I am 'awake', I have virtually no energy. I've driven once in the past two weeks, and I almost fell asleep while driving. My roommate helps when he can and does some errands for me, but he's very busy with a full courseload of summer classes, with papers and tests basically every other day, and unfortunately he's just not able to help me with my perfume backlog, for the most part - it's not work that he's good at. This is work that I need to do.
I'm hoping that by Friday or Saturday I'll have some meds that will improve my mental state so that I'm actually able to function, and that I'll be able to power through the perfume backlog. I know that two days of really good days of hard, continuous work will enable me to finish sending everything out, and I'm hoping that comes this weekend once I'm on better meds.
I don't want to make promises I can't keep, but as I have always said in my updates - I take this situation very seriously and I am committed to sending everyone the promised perfume. I have all the promised perfume, and it has all been set aside for each person. I am embarrassed, depressed, and upset about my slowness and I wish more than anything that I could fulfill my obligations to you all more quickly. I think about this situation all the time, nearly constantly, and despite everything - I still feel confident that I CAN get everything shipped out.
I hope to have more hopeful news soon, with some shipping updates, and will post as soon again as soon as I do - and I hope that will be in a few days. I've disabled comments bc I don't wish to deal with anymore drama and unfortunately, there is nothing anyone can say that would improve this awful situation. Everyone's who's been supportive or even just patiently quiet - thank you. I appreciate it tremendously.