Sense of Joy
It's been a fairly good week thus far. Mild but good. And I'm prepared for a relaxing weekend filled with catching up on my life, sending emails to friends, reading, and even watching a few movies that I missed in the theatres.
I came into the office this morning and one of the girls brought donuts in. The evil wench! But when offered, I simply said no and successfully resisted the temptation until they were gone. It may be small to most but I consider that a major accomplishment for me. I'm trying very hard to push away that need for a sense of instant gratification in my life. The pleasure of an instant "high" is an addiction for me but those moments rarely have long term payoffs. I'm not saying that I would completely forsake the little indulgences that present themselves in a split second. But I want to be more mindful of the long term effects of such things. The donut this morning, I have no doubt, would have tasted great. Hot and fresh from Krispy Kreme. But I was not interested in the guilt of deviating from my healthy eating (formerly known as a diet). P sent me praise in an email about my choice. And as compensation for not devouring the sugary sweet, he sent me an itinerary for a Christmas visit. Pretty good pay off. *smile*
More accomplishements for this week: stuck to my healthy eating, gym twice this week so far. And once again tomorrow.
I'm guesssing that my 30's will be good years. Not that I'm complaining about my life prior. But I feel an overwhelming sense to really enjoy life to it's fullest. I have a good job. My fairy tale romance. Getting fit. Starting school soon. I'm just...happy. No gloom and doom. No anxiety. Just a life worth living.
I came into the office this morning and one of the girls brought donuts in. The evil wench! But when offered, I simply said no and successfully resisted the temptation until they were gone. It may be small to most but I consider that a major accomplishment for me. I'm trying very hard to push away that need for a sense of instant gratification in my life. The pleasure of an instant "high" is an addiction for me but those moments rarely have long term payoffs. I'm not saying that I would completely forsake the little indulgences that present themselves in a split second. But I want to be more mindful of the long term effects of such things. The donut this morning, I have no doubt, would have tasted great. Hot and fresh from Krispy Kreme. But I was not interested in the guilt of deviating from my healthy eating (formerly known as a diet). P sent me praise in an email about my choice. And as compensation for not devouring the sugary sweet, he sent me an itinerary for a Christmas visit. Pretty good pay off. *smile*
More accomplishements for this week: stuck to my healthy eating, gym twice this week so far. And once again tomorrow.
I'm guesssing that my 30's will be good years. Not that I'm complaining about my life prior. But I feel an overwhelming sense to really enjoy life to it's fullest. I have a good job. My fairy tale romance. Getting fit. Starting school soon. I'm just...happy. No gloom and doom. No anxiety. Just a life worth living.