Emotional ramblings... feel free to skip
I don't like who I am. More correctly, I don't like where I am and what I am doing. I need more intimacy in my life. I would be so much happier with emotionally intimate and vulnerable connections to my friends and loved ones. My current social circle doesn't seem to include this particular trait or preference on their priority lists. Not at all. At least it doesn't seem like it to me. Please feel free to correct me if I'm misguided somehow.
I need a different (additional) social circle who encourages and thrives on intimate, emotional, energetic connections. Give and take of attention and creative energy freely. Where do I find such a thing? I'm stuck in the snobby suburbs of Atlanta Ga. I'm sure there's groups like this in the more liberated neighborhoods of Atlanta, but how do I find them, and gain acceptance? I don't have the money to attend workshops and classes on the topics that interest me (such as tantra, bellydance, yoga, or healthful cooking). I also don't have the money, time or energy to drive to Atlanta multiple times a week. Worst of all, I don't feel like I have the communication skills or the experience to add any wisdom or insight, which upsets me.
I don't know what I need to do to change my life.
I wish I had more confidence in myself.
I wish I knew how to stop giving away my energy and focus.
As I told a dear friend just now: I crave emotional intimacy and vulnerability, but I'm terrified of opening up and being vulnerable to a group of strangers in hopes of someone getting to know and be attracted to the real me.
20 minutes later... got distracted with family discussions about sustenance. Not sure what else to say. Maybe I'm over my emo moment. Maybe I'm just PMSing and I'll go back to being satisfied with what I've got whenever the bleeding finally starts and gets itself out of the way. Yea.
This has been my monthly emotional vent. Please move along.
I need a different (additional) social circle who encourages and thrives on intimate, emotional, energetic connections. Give and take of attention and creative energy freely. Where do I find such a thing? I'm stuck in the snobby suburbs of Atlanta Ga. I'm sure there's groups like this in the more liberated neighborhoods of Atlanta, but how do I find them, and gain acceptance? I don't have the money to attend workshops and classes on the topics that interest me (such as tantra, bellydance, yoga, or healthful cooking). I also don't have the money, time or energy to drive to Atlanta multiple times a week. Worst of all, I don't feel like I have the communication skills or the experience to add any wisdom or insight, which upsets me.
I don't know what I need to do to change my life.
I wish I had more confidence in myself.
I wish I knew how to stop giving away my energy and focus.
As I told a dear friend just now: I crave emotional intimacy and vulnerability, but I'm terrified of opening up and being vulnerable to a group of strangers in hopes of someone getting to know and be attracted to the real me.
20 minutes later... got distracted with family discussions about sustenance. Not sure what else to say. Maybe I'm over my emo moment. Maybe I'm just PMSing and I'll go back to being satisfied with what I've got whenever the bleeding finally starts and gets itself out of the way. Yea.
This has been my monthly emotional vent. Please move along.