Requests are difficult for me
For the past month and a half or so I've been unemployed and helpful. Left and right I've been putting my energy and my focus into activities and tasks for other people, saving just enough to barely handle my own needs. Now I find myself feeling completely drained and rather neglected. I've had some attention but it was mostly at my own insistence and efforts.
Looking back, I think my entire life has been this way. I'm always the one to come up with ideas for strengthening a relationship, increasing intimacy, trying new things. I'm always willing to help out when someone needs an extra hand or some experience. I'm a naturally giving person, but that can only go on for so long. Eventually I run out. And right now? I'm completely tapped.
I need somebody to take care of me for a while.... I've been putting myself out for people for a long while lately... energetically and literally.... I need someone to give back to me for once. And I'm not sure how that can be done, specifically.
I need someone or something to turn my efforts around on me. I'm energetically and spiritually drained. I need a refill. I don't know what will do that. I don't know what to ask for. I just know I need... something. And even if I DID know, then I'm not sure the ultimate act would help, because really it would just be someone else following through on my idea and my request.
Isn't there anybody in this world who thinks highly enough of me to take care of me for once?
I've been telling the people closest to me for a while that I've been feeling neglected. I don't see it helping much at all. But I'm not sure that I've been able to convey exactly the kind of neglect that I've been feeling.
I don't know how else to put it. I just feel this deep down longing for a deep, intimate connection and someone to take the world off my shoulders. Maybe by putting this feeling and these thoughts out into the world the universe will send me what I need.
Looking back, I think my entire life has been this way. I'm always the one to come up with ideas for strengthening a relationship, increasing intimacy, trying new things. I'm always willing to help out when someone needs an extra hand or some experience. I'm a naturally giving person, but that can only go on for so long. Eventually I run out. And right now? I'm completely tapped.
I need somebody to take care of me for a while.... I've been putting myself out for people for a long while lately... energetically and literally.... I need someone to give back to me for once. And I'm not sure how that can be done, specifically.
I need someone or something to turn my efforts around on me. I'm energetically and spiritually drained. I need a refill. I don't know what will do that. I don't know what to ask for. I just know I need... something. And even if I DID know, then I'm not sure the ultimate act would help, because really it would just be someone else following through on my idea and my request.
Isn't there anybody in this world who thinks highly enough of me to take care of me for once?
I've been telling the people closest to me for a while that I've been feeling neglected. I don't see it helping much at all. But I'm not sure that I've been able to convey exactly the kind of neglect that I've been feeling.
I don't know how else to put it. I just feel this deep down longing for a deep, intimate connection and someone to take the world off my shoulders. Maybe by putting this feeling and these thoughts out into the world the universe will send me what I need.