so i finally decided to give myself a reason..
the other day we found out on saturday a girl that my sister is friends with died in a snow plow car accident thing..and it made me think a lot into death and what not. and i'll just type what i wrote down in my study hall today..
it's weird when someone that you somehow know dies. it makes you think messed up thoughts and begin to feel frightened for your own life at the same time. it makes you open your eyes and step into the real life and how everyone isn't going to die at an old age warm in their bed. content with the adventures and emotions ones life was filled with. some people may grow angry with these next few thoughts and words written with this lead filled pencil, but such incidences leave you with thoughts that dont seem to flutter out quickly. so many people believe in a heaven and hell, and assume that once you die, you will be carried to a certain place to live on. but before you were born, you dont remember a single thing while waiting those nine months. you dont remember waiting the day that it would be your first birthday. so when you die, whos to say that you will just pass on and not remember the slightest memory or thought that you experienced? whos to say that when you're dead its over and you will have no other chance to be that person you keep waiting to be? whos to say you will have no memory or even a clip of your movie life to carry on with. but that it would be over. forever. no more second chances. no more waiting for that future to come to finally begin the adventure that you realize has already ended. it came without a hello and left with the saddest goodbye. nobody realizes it, but each second that passes, could bring you closer to a life that does not exist. as for now, i shut my eyes and become frightened at the fact that no one knows the actual truth of what will happen to us. please let me wake up.
it's weird when someone that you somehow know dies. it makes you think messed up thoughts and begin to feel frightened for your own life at the same time. it makes you open your eyes and step into the real life and how everyone isn't going to die at an old age warm in their bed. content with the adventures and emotions ones life was filled with. some people may grow angry with these next few thoughts and words written with this lead filled pencil, but such incidences leave you with thoughts that dont seem to flutter out quickly. so many people believe in a heaven and hell, and assume that once you die, you will be carried to a certain place to live on. but before you were born, you dont remember a single thing while waiting those nine months. you dont remember waiting the day that it would be your first birthday. so when you die, whos to say that you will just pass on and not remember the slightest memory or thought that you experienced? whos to say that when you're dead its over and you will have no other chance to be that person you keep waiting to be? whos to say you will have no memory or even a clip of your movie life to carry on with. but that it would be over. forever. no more second chances. no more waiting for that future to come to finally begin the adventure that you realize has already ended. it came without a hello and left with the saddest goodbye. nobody realizes it, but each second that passes, could bring you closer to a life that does not exist. as for now, i shut my eyes and become frightened at the fact that no one knows the actual truth of what will happen to us. please let me wake up.