Memories
This time of year always brings back the happiest and fondest memories from my past. Its been three years since I have even seen or had a conversation with the girl I loved more then any other person in my life. My feelings were one sided and even though you knew my interest, I don't think I ever expressed how much you really meant to me or how I truly felt about you. I could have married you, for years you were the only person I ever wanted to be with, and I never felt the way I did with you for anyone else. The stress of those thoughts, and my regrettable decision to be smoking so much dope for so long made me break away into a new life. Now all these years later, finally with a cleared head and a strange journey to end up where I am now, I still find myself thinking about you more then I ought to be. I cant help but think, had I been more honest with myself could I have made things end up different? Or if I had stopped smoking dope sooner would that have changed things any? Though the door has been closed firmly for a long time now, at first by me and now out of retaliation by you, I still find myself day dreaming at times on how we would do together.