You know I would promise, I'd do anything
Yeah so since we don't have myspace at school anymore, I have to type my entries in an email to myself and post them on here when I get home cus I don't have the time to write all this crap out anymore. So here's the entry I wrote in 6th hour today:
Today sucked. Let's see I told Kortni and Dezi last night to be up at the school for lunch and forgot that I was taking "C" lunch today because we had a test in US History (4th Hour). Then during the middle of my test, we had a drill to go outside. I thought it was a fire drill but instead we had a freakin bomb threat. So I was outside during "B" lunch for the drill and then back out at "C" for lunch. So I ended up getting to hang out with Dezi and Kortni for two lunch periods. I don't know how well I did on my test. I know I passed the 4 essays I had to right, but I'm not sure about the multiple choice parts. There were too many names and inventions/things accomplished that I had to memorize. I was way too unprepared.
Then in 5th hour we had another fire drill. Every freakin day we have a fire drill. I'm sorry, but if I'm going to spend 8 hours of my day in a prison like building 5 days out of the week, I want to effing learn something, not stand outside and freeze my ass off. So then when we were outside during the drill, Amanda told Andrew I like him. (Andrew's this kid in my English class that I have a crush on).
I'm sitting in 6th hour right now. One more hour to go and I get to see Liz. So I guess my cousin Ryan now hates me because I'm bi. I'm sorry but that's bullshit. I was his "favorite cousin" up until he found that out. I'm so over all this homophobia shit. People need to grow the eff up. I'm sure if a gay guy popped him in the butt he'd probably like it. That's the only reason why I think guys are so homophobic is because they're afraid if they had sex with another man, they'd like it too much. GROW UP. It made me cry when I found out Ryan hates me now. The sad thing is, that I had to find out from Gussie. And I didn't even know he knew my cousin. He came up to me yesterday and was like, "I didn't know you were related to Ryan Hoffman." and I was like, "Yeah he's my favorite effin cousin." and then he goes, "Well Ryan said he hates you now because he found out your bi." It took everything I had not to hit Gussie in the face just for the simple fact that he was the one who told me that. You know, Ryan could've ignored me for the rest of his life and I would've been fine because I never would've known what it was about. But you know what, I'm sorry but I'm not changing who I am just for the only cousin who ever freakin gave a shit about me. Hell his mom is my first cousin (so he's my second) and the only reason I ever used to go over to her appartment was to hang out with him. Shit when I was around him, I didn't worry about anything else because we were too busy having fun.
So yeah the other night Brock let me borrow his All American Rejects CD and Alan was taking me home and it was on my finger. Well it got stuck and I started freaking out. So I was just about to tell Alan to take me to St. Mary's so I could get my finger cut off because there was no way in hell I was going to break that CD. I'd never break an All American Rejects CD. EVER! So yeah Mikey thinks I "gave up on him". There were times I wanted to but I couldn't do it because I like him way to effin much. He told me he was sorry for being a waste of time. Dude what the hell...he was never a waste of time. As far as that goes, I was the waste of time. It never seemed like he liked me to begin with and then suddenly he was all sad because he read my live journal. He needs to realize how old that freakin entry was. And if he would've known half of what I was feeling when I wrote that maybe he'd understand. I don't like having my feelings screwed with. But honestly, if I was ever actually going to give up on him, I wouldn't talk to him at all. But yeah I'm done for now because I'm busy talking to Alan and Justin on AIM and plus the bell is going to ring soon.
<3Christina
Today sucked. Let's see I told Kortni and Dezi last night to be up at the school for lunch and forgot that I was taking "C" lunch today because we had a test in US History (4th Hour). Then during the middle of my test, we had a drill to go outside. I thought it was a fire drill but instead we had a freakin bomb threat. So I was outside during "B" lunch for the drill and then back out at "C" for lunch. So I ended up getting to hang out with Dezi and Kortni for two lunch periods. I don't know how well I did on my test. I know I passed the 4 essays I had to right, but I'm not sure about the multiple choice parts. There were too many names and inventions/things accomplished that I had to memorize. I was way too unprepared.
Then in 5th hour we had another fire drill. Every freakin day we have a fire drill. I'm sorry, but if I'm going to spend 8 hours of my day in a prison like building 5 days out of the week, I want to effing learn something, not stand outside and freeze my ass off. So then when we were outside during the drill, Amanda told Andrew I like him. (Andrew's this kid in my English class that I have a crush on).
I'm sitting in 6th hour right now. One more hour to go and I get to see Liz. So I guess my cousin Ryan now hates me because I'm bi. I'm sorry but that's bullshit. I was his "favorite cousin" up until he found that out. I'm so over all this homophobia shit. People need to grow the eff up. I'm sure if a gay guy popped him in the butt he'd probably like it. That's the only reason why I think guys are so homophobic is because they're afraid if they had sex with another man, they'd like it too much. GROW UP. It made me cry when I found out Ryan hates me now. The sad thing is, that I had to find out from Gussie. And I didn't even know he knew my cousin. He came up to me yesterday and was like, "I didn't know you were related to Ryan Hoffman." and I was like, "Yeah he's my favorite effin cousin." and then he goes, "Well Ryan said he hates you now because he found out your bi." It took everything I had not to hit Gussie in the face just for the simple fact that he was the one who told me that. You know, Ryan could've ignored me for the rest of his life and I would've been fine because I never would've known what it was about. But you know what, I'm sorry but I'm not changing who I am just for the only cousin who ever freakin gave a shit about me. Hell his mom is my first cousin (so he's my second) and the only reason I ever used to go over to her appartment was to hang out with him. Shit when I was around him, I didn't worry about anything else because we were too busy having fun.
So yeah the other night Brock let me borrow his All American Rejects CD and Alan was taking me home and it was on my finger. Well it got stuck and I started freaking out. So I was just about to tell Alan to take me to St. Mary's so I could get my finger cut off because there was no way in hell I was going to break that CD. I'd never break an All American Rejects CD. EVER! So yeah Mikey thinks I "gave up on him". There were times I wanted to but I couldn't do it because I like him way to effin much. He told me he was sorry for being a waste of time. Dude what the hell...he was never a waste of time. As far as that goes, I was the waste of time. It never seemed like he liked me to begin with and then suddenly he was all sad because he read my live journal. He needs to realize how old that freakin entry was. And if he would've known half of what I was feeling when I wrote that maybe he'd understand. I don't like having my feelings screwed with. But honestly, if I was ever actually going to give up on him, I wouldn't talk to him at all. But yeah I'm done for now because I'm busy talking to Alan and Justin on AIM and plus the bell is going to ring soon.
<3Christina