Maybe I'm Dead?
So yeah the weekend was way too short. I hate school. I hate work. I pretty much hate anywhere that doesn't have good food and nice comfy bed to sleep on. I wish I could lay under the blankets all day and just sleep...never wake up. I'd never have drama, I'd never be a problem to someone else. Everything that has ever gone wrong for me would be forgotten. I feel useless. What's there to think when no one loves you? I feel like a pest. Like my purpose in life was to be alone. I wish I had a gun. Or maybe something sharp. My ankle still hurts. My ears are at a 6 now. I'm stopping because my left ear is just too hard to gage. I feel like puking. Until all my blood is drained from my body and I lay lifeless on the floor. I feel like I'm a waste of time. I mean that's what I'm always told. Everyone wants me to fail. Well I've failed. Is that what you wanted to hear?
There was a time when I wanted to give up on him because I figured I wasn't getting anywhere and I thought maybe I was just making him hate me more than I was making him life me. Well congradulations to my dumb ass because I think that's what I've done. He was never a waste of time. I feel like crying. Infact, I am. I'm a big baby. What's my point here. This is my goodbye. Tonight I hope for once, I strike an artery.
Farewell, I was the waste of time, not you. I promise. You don't know what I'd do for the chance to be with you. But it isn't looking like that will ever happen. I'm sorry if you feel like crap. That wasn't my intention. I'll let you live your life free of me. I'm not worth it anyway.
A Soul In Human Form,
Christina 'Currently Dying' H.
There was a time when I wanted to give up on him because I figured I wasn't getting anywhere and I thought maybe I was just making him hate me more than I was making him life me. Well congradulations to my dumb ass because I think that's what I've done. He was never a waste of time. I feel like crying. Infact, I am. I'm a big baby. What's my point here. This is my goodbye. Tonight I hope for once, I strike an artery.
Farewell, I was the waste of time, not you. I promise. You don't know what I'd do for the chance to be with you. But it isn't looking like that will ever happen. I'm sorry if you feel like crap. That wasn't my intention. I'll let you live your life free of me. I'm not worth it anyway.
A Soul In Human Form,
Christina 'Currently Dying' H.