Every distraction has a true meaning hidden in the crosshairs.
And so I am alive and breathing.
However, a breath of fresh air could possibly be too much air all together.
Life has been a struggle lately but only survival by the aide of Lauren and my brother.
I really don't know what to say. I know this isn't fair to people who have mentioned how long it has been since I've even written in this forsaken journal. Yet, I am not sure if it truely matters anymore.
As I sit here without a single feeling in me, I really wonder what will happen soon.
Everything seems to be turmoil in my mind.
Contradicting thoughts are an imaginary friend to me ever-so-often.
I wish I could figure out a way for a turnstile to better everything going on around me.
I worry about Lauren and my brother. However, the root of the worries don't seem to bother me anymore.
I don't make much sense to anything I write in here anymore. I don't even know if I make much sense to myself at all.
This was an update long overdue. I am still working at Blockbuster and I've been with Lauren for over a year now. The only true joy in my life is that girl and I'm forever grateful.
I will end this now so I can sit in my chair in complete darkness just thinking about the past and how much of it is truely a lie.
<3 xo
Nathan Thomas
However, a breath of fresh air could possibly be too much air all together.
Life has been a struggle lately but only survival by the aide of Lauren and my brother.
I really don't know what to say. I know this isn't fair to people who have mentioned how long it has been since I've even written in this forsaken journal. Yet, I am not sure if it truely matters anymore.
As I sit here without a single feeling in me, I really wonder what will happen soon.
Everything seems to be turmoil in my mind.
Contradicting thoughts are an imaginary friend to me ever-so-often.
I wish I could figure out a way for a turnstile to better everything going on around me.
I worry about Lauren and my brother. However, the root of the worries don't seem to bother me anymore.
I don't make much sense to anything I write in here anymore. I don't even know if I make much sense to myself at all.
This was an update long overdue. I am still working at Blockbuster and I've been with Lauren for over a year now. The only true joy in my life is that girl and I'm forever grateful.
I will end this now so I can sit in my chair in complete darkness just thinking about the past and how much of it is truely a lie.
<3 xo
Nathan Thomas