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[failure0nmylips]

im so tired of people
im being used
some realize others dont
by my closest friends
thats what hurts the most
i dont care how much money i spend on you
thats not what matters at all
it is that i do everything i can for you guys
put you all before myself
and i get fucked over for doing so
stop being selfish
please
because i cant handle this anymore
it hurts to bad
best friends
and i cant approach one of you about it
because no matter what you wont admit it

to that one person i have been talking to about this a lot
thank you for helping
or at least trying
i have appreciated the time we have been spending together
and im glad you understand
yet i dont know what to do and need help

imagine having people tell you everyday
that you are being used and that you are someones bitch
when they are talking about your closest friends
imagine how that feels
that think of how it is when you realize that most of it is true

all i want is to be there for my friends
and for them to appreciate me as a person
and care
thats all i ask for....