My heart has fallen into a coma. Don't fucking wake it.
I am so incredibly tired of woman. no. wait. let me rephrase that. I am so incredibly tired of "girls." I've reached the point where i honestly don't believe there are any girls out there who know what the fuck they want. "I want a sweet guy" "I want a guy who can make me laugh" "I want a commited boyfriend" "I want a boyfriend who appreciates me" now here is where it gets tricky "I want perfection" ok so girls don't actually say that but with all there goddamn demands honestly thats what they are seeking. Fucking perfection. I can do 99 things out of there list of 100 and because i miss that one i'm obviously not perfect so now they must dump me because there must be some guy out there that could perform 100 out of a fucking 100. OR you do all the things they want and yet they leave you for some prick because i suppose ur just to nice? which nice is boring? or perhaps you finally feel unappreciated for all the things you do and now ur an asshole and everything u've ever done for them has been thrown out the goddamn door for one fucking mistake. I don't think i'll ever understand girls and the older i get the less i want anything to do with them. Whoever said that girls mature faster then boys must have been smokin some good shit. Cuz honestly every girl i've come across has been so fucking immature! all i do seems to never be enough and i'm getting so tired of it. I've finally figured it out. I keep settling for these little girls when i should be looking for a fucking woman. No. wait.yet again. All the fucking woman already have some dickwad attached to them at the hip. God i feel so sufficated in this fucking world. Why is it so fucking hard to find one fucking decent girl??????? i wish i wasn't so wrapped up in love but i guess coming from a broken home its always been the biggest thing for me since i was a child. Finding someone to love who isn't going to leave and just love back and be sincere about it all. I seriously need to figure out a way to be more career driven and just fuck girls in general. I'm so livid pissed and i feel like i'm drowing in all the disappoints life has thrown at me. I don't think i can tolerate another failed relationship. Is it fucking me? or am i not nuts and just a poor decision maker on who i choose 2 date. I should just be a goddamn swinger for christ sake.