Is it so wrong to ask for a bit of entertainment geesh

[failing2try]

Its freakn 12:26 and feels like its 2 in the morn,which is really retarded because this day as been draggin so shouldn't it feel like 10? yeah,i'm whacked out like that. I am absolutely bored and it doesn't help that theres nothing to do. I think i've just about check every website i normally browse about 100 times today. Knowing theres nothing new that will appear in a matter of an hour but i guess its the amusement that theres always that what if.I desperately want to talk to someone, which is a lot because i'm not the most conversational but goddamnit my cell phone battery is low and i need to save what little i have for 2morrow. Cars in the shop so i will impatiently await the call indicating my car is ready for pickup. These are the times i miss having a gf, i realized i'm entertained so easily wif em. I can bug em and they can shove me and everything is just blissfully retarded just the way i like it. I've come to the realization that i sooo desperately want to be skinnier because my style soo does not suit me. I mean it does for my weight but its just not me. I'm that emo/sk8ter boy type and well for comfort reasons i've been dressing like a prep/jock. This is incredibly not me but for my goddamn weight it'll have to do. I also realize that i don't get called all the much, makes me think whats the point of having a phone to begin with. Did i mention i'm incredibly bored? i want to cut my hair but i fear if i get the haircut i've been wanting for a while now i won't get hired at any job i apply at..damn judgemental fuckers. God i wish i was home right now bmxing throughout my neighborhood and talkn smack wif my boy kyle about chicks or trying to up one another with tricks, usually its me daring him to do it and if he survives then i'll do it. I'm such a pussy bitch sometimes but thats due to a fucked up/clumsy childhood. Its so hard to find a gf when ur heart is weighed down by an ex gf u still love. I try to keep myself busy so i won't have to think about her and i can move on gradually but its long nights like these that bring me back to square one. I often wonder what chicks on the street think of me..i know i'm not attractive but good lord to have at least one hot chick show me an ounce of attention my lord that would help me make it through a few more months. I think i'm bored with writing, hasn't really fulfilled my urge to talk one on one with someone. I'll end it here and if i feel like speaking my mind anymore tonight i'll be sure to write.

Where the fuck is my emo chick?

A-boy