Fly away....

[failedxattempts]

I hate her...I hate this place...U know so many people think that just because u don't come out of ur house with broken bones or bruises ur not getting abused....They forget some of the most harmful abuse of all....Mental....I just wish my fucking car would just work. If it would just have worked I wouldn't have broken down right in front of the fucking bitch. I wanna get out of her so bad.....I just want someone to pay attention to me, love me for what I am, for who I am, I just want some affection, I just want someone to care, I want my opinion to be valuable, I want to stop feeling like the bad guy, I just wanna stop. I hurt so much and so deep, but no one knows it, no one sees it, feels it. It hurts so much. I just want to get out. I'm so tired of being invisible. I'm so damn tired of hurting. I have no ambition for anything anymore. No ambition for anything except to get out, and everytime I get a glimer of that, they just shut it down. I want out of this house & out of my life. I don't wanna be me anymore.
I just want some rest, some rejuvination, some...hope. I hope tonight goes as planned because if it does, it'll be everything I need. I know I'll get that relaxation I'm hoping for, I'll get away from her and I'll get out of here. I need tonight....Please give me what I need.....

-Desperation