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Yeah so sence the schools full days have started schools seamd like its been sooo long lol. At practice yesterday we got our jearsys and stuff witch was sweet. So yeah today was so boaring, i have no use in writin right now haha. After practice i stayed and watched some of the freshmen game with ali, emily and kathryn. So i went home and really did nothing....i been in such a shitty mood latley...im about to write a bunch of shit cuz i need to get a lot of stuff our right now and i dont care who reads it, or what you think its just what i have to say. If i think who i think is gonna read it and its probally about you then yeah its all true.
First my family is like falliong apart, i like dont even feel like talking to any of them anymore im so sick of them. But like my dads gonna like lose his job and then who knows what will happen. Me and parents are always fighting. Im always getting in trouble for some shit and its so gay. My dad always seams to be gone, witch sucks and i can tell its bothering my mom. My mom seams like shes always sick and never does anything but sits there and shit. Like yeah i love her and everything and i really wish she wasnt always sick but its so annoying when we can never do anything togerther anymore. We got in this big fight today and like she said some stuff that really made me think, i dont wanna say it here cuz its scary but like it drives me crazy were always fighting and im always introuble for something.
Ok so this one thing i cannot stop thinking about, and its really been driving me crazy. Like i like him but i dont, i dont know what i want, i dont know what he wants, i dont know what i should do, i have so much too say but i never have a chance. It seams like he never wants to talk he always wants to do something else if ya know what i mean. It just doesent seam right anymore and i just dont know what to fucking do. This shit drives me crazy. I dont even think i wanna work things out cuz i dont know how it will turn out or what will happen, i dont know when or how it will happen. Who the hell knows, i just really wanna get this off my mind and just move on, but thats the problem i cant, and i really want to. I want to see what else there is, i have so much ahead of me and i dont have time for this shit. Were always bitching about something, yeah sorry my life isnt perfect or some shit or how you would like it or i cant always be what you want me to. Im not gonna change whatever im doing for someone i wont do it for anyone. I really dont care anymore, im so sick of it and i think im done im not going to go throug it anymore, may not seem like a big deal to you but it sure as hell is to me...so im done fuck it...im moving on
First my family is like falliong apart, i like dont even feel like talking to any of them anymore im so sick of them. But like my dads gonna like lose his job and then who knows what will happen. Me and parents are always fighting. Im always getting in trouble for some shit and its so gay. My dad always seams to be gone, witch sucks and i can tell its bothering my mom. My mom seams like shes always sick and never does anything but sits there and shit. Like yeah i love her and everything and i really wish she wasnt always sick but its so annoying when we can never do anything togerther anymore. We got in this big fight today and like she said some stuff that really made me think, i dont wanna say it here cuz its scary but like it drives me crazy were always fighting and im always introuble for something.
Ok so this one thing i cannot stop thinking about, and its really been driving me crazy. Like i like him but i dont, i dont know what i want, i dont know what he wants, i dont know what i should do, i have so much too say but i never have a chance. It seams like he never wants to talk he always wants to do something else if ya know what i mean. It just doesent seam right anymore and i just dont know what to fucking do. This shit drives me crazy. I dont even think i wanna work things out cuz i dont know how it will turn out or what will happen, i dont know when or how it will happen. Who the hell knows, i just really wanna get this off my mind and just move on, but thats the problem i cant, and i really want to. I want to see what else there is, i have so much ahead of me and i dont have time for this shit. Were always bitching about something, yeah sorry my life isnt perfect or some shit or how you would like it or i cant always be what you want me to. Im not gonna change whatever im doing for someone i wont do it for anyone. I really dont care anymore, im so sick of it and i think im done im not going to go throug it anymore, may not seem like a big deal to you but it sure as hell is to me...so im done fuck it...im moving on