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So I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving weekend...
alex came over for the thanksgiving at my house
after that me matt ej cooper and alex went outside and rode the 4 wheeler for hours....
we were freezing...fucking like human icepops
when we finally went inside...
but it was pretty fun....
we had snow and shit
he ended up staying until like 1 that morning...we cuddled and watched movies that night until he left
then on sunday he came over to my moms house with me, had another thanksgiving
and you know what, that went suprisingly well...like unbelieveably well...
tori even likes him...
she made us play hide and go seek with her...
she shoved him under the bed...
it was the cutest thing...
she hid under the bed with him....
by the way....shes 4
today is his birthday...
happy 20th baby!!
last night i gave him part of his present...
its this really nice Zippo...and getting him this fucking kickass sweatshirt a few movies
some cd's some shotglasses...
fully equipped with a few bottles of booze to pour with..
on the 10th i have to take my ACTS in springfield...so were renting a room for friday night, and then on saturday were going up to burlington for the night with my dad and kathy....it should be an eventful weekend....
this thursday is my big team meeting that ive been waiting for to happen for the past month...finally get off my house arrest... party this weekend....finally...
i think this is what love is really like
this is what they talk about...
when you wake up to his face lying next to you
and youre in complete and total bliss...
where you dont wanna move and you can never get enough of....anything...him.
where you cant go through the day without hearing his voice otherwie you roll around for hours on end just thinking about him...
not that he might be up to something but more of....
you cant go through a day not seeing if hes okay...
letting you be okay....
where you can just look into his eyes and not even care....the whole world thats revolving around the two of you in eachothers arms doesnt even give a shit that as long as you keep your eyes on eachother without blinking the rest of your eternity can fall from your grasp...
where you dont even care about the thoughts of other male bodies...sexual arousal and pleasure that could be experienced with anyone else doesnt even compare...
the mere thought of him will instead overflow your mind...body....nerves...
its when thoughts of both of your bodies panting, sweating, overbearingly passionate touches sometimes doesnt even cut the fact that hes sitting right next to you holding your hand when your insides are being ripped apart....that you know that he cares....
maybe this is what ive been missing for the past...how long...
trying to fill this whole with as many different random people as i could...making making myself feel more about myself thinking im more attractive because the number of male bodies on my list continue to rise as the hours in each night past....
i was wrong...
all along...
what ive been missing...
was that special someone...
ive finally found him.and im happy.
alex came over for the thanksgiving at my house
after that me matt ej cooper and alex went outside and rode the 4 wheeler for hours....
we were freezing...fucking like human icepops
when we finally went inside...
but it was pretty fun....
we had snow and shit
he ended up staying until like 1 that morning...we cuddled and watched movies that night until he left
then on sunday he came over to my moms house with me, had another thanksgiving
and you know what, that went suprisingly well...like unbelieveably well...
tori even likes him...
she made us play hide and go seek with her...
she shoved him under the bed...
it was the cutest thing...
she hid under the bed with him....
by the way....shes 4
today is his birthday...
happy 20th baby!!
last night i gave him part of his present...
its this really nice Zippo...and getting him this fucking kickass sweatshirt a few movies
some cd's some shotglasses...
fully equipped with a few bottles of booze to pour with..
on the 10th i have to take my ACTS in springfield...so were renting a room for friday night, and then on saturday were going up to burlington for the night with my dad and kathy....it should be an eventful weekend....
this thursday is my big team meeting that ive been waiting for to happen for the past month...finally get off my house arrest... party this weekend....finally...
i think this is what love is really like
this is what they talk about...
when you wake up to his face lying next to you
and youre in complete and total bliss...
where you dont wanna move and you can never get enough of....anything...him.
where you cant go through the day without hearing his voice otherwie you roll around for hours on end just thinking about him...
not that he might be up to something but more of....
you cant go through a day not seeing if hes okay...
letting you be okay....
where you can just look into his eyes and not even care....the whole world thats revolving around the two of you in eachothers arms doesnt even give a shit that as long as you keep your eyes on eachother without blinking the rest of your eternity can fall from your grasp...
where you dont even care about the thoughts of other male bodies...sexual arousal and pleasure that could be experienced with anyone else doesnt even compare...
the mere thought of him will instead overflow your mind...body....nerves...
its when thoughts of both of your bodies panting, sweating, overbearingly passionate touches sometimes doesnt even cut the fact that hes sitting right next to you holding your hand when your insides are being ripped apart....that you know that he cares....
maybe this is what ive been missing for the past...how long...
trying to fill this whole with as many different random people as i could...making making myself feel more about myself thinking im more attractive because the number of male bodies on my list continue to rise as the hours in each night past....
i was wrong...
all along...
what ive been missing...
was that special someone...
ive finally found him.and im happy.