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so i hope everyone had a great halloween yesterday!!
mine...i had a 2 hour doctors checkup that went way longer than it should have...i have to go back on the 28th...PAPS and HIV shit...afterward, thinkng that we were gonna go back to the house, i hear that we have to stop by at my caseworkers office....he was gonna stop by the house yesterday but since we were down there....
so we walk in like 2 hours later than we said we were gonna be there....unfortunately he was still there and didnt go home yet...hell he was getting paid to sit around on his fuckin fat ass and make my day go down the fucking drain....
so he sits me down...
"you know what youre here for...dont you."
"fuck you."
hell...im pissed i know why im there...but i know i should try and be on his good side so...
"yeah, im expected to pee in your cup and show you that ive been clean."
"yup you got it...although<> ive heard rumors about you recently jennifer and im not liking what im hearing..."
okay that confuses me i hate muhfuckas who talk shit..
"rumors?"
"i hope that i dont see that youve used anything...i hope you surprise us..."
im still on the rumors....
"what rumors?"
"jennifer, i really hope that i dont see cocaine in your system...ive also heard that you are still smoking dope...but i really dont wanna see that youre back on cocaine..."
"WHO THE FUCK SAID THAT I WAS FUCKING DOING ALL THIS SHIT?!?!? WHAT HAPPENED TO FUCKING CONFIDENTIALITY?!?!??!"
so few minutes later im in the bathroom....big fat ass bitch is sitting outside the bathroom door making sure i dont tamper with my piss.....haha.
okay okay...the cup fell into the toilet getting my piss a little wet...soaked in water...who cares huh?
i have to fuckin redo it....
this time....shes watching me piss in the cup...her back...is not facing me...bitch.
fuckin piss all over myself? I DONT THINK SO....
i had to wash my hands a few extra times....my nerves were kinda getting to me anyways...
so after about 10 minutes the test results are in....
amphetamines....BEEEp
Opiates....BEEEPP
Phwncyclidine....BEeeP
COcaine.....
.......BEEEppp
THC? .....DING DING DING WE HAVE A WINNER!!!
oh well....its not too bad i guess....
though this thursdya we have a team meeting its gonna be brought up and if they decide to give me another chance, then ill stay clean...otherwise...you know what could happen?
they could deny my diversion case and bring it back into court
bringing out my three felonies from the dead and then ill be charged with all this shit again...then they are going to recommend a 90-120 day period of rehab for myself....I DONT FUCKING THINK SO.
but its too late for apologies....
thursday...here i come :-(
mine...i had a 2 hour doctors checkup that went way longer than it should have...i have to go back on the 28th...PAPS and HIV shit...afterward, thinkng that we were gonna go back to the house, i hear that we have to stop by at my caseworkers office....he was gonna stop by the house yesterday but since we were down there....
so we walk in like 2 hours later than we said we were gonna be there....unfortunately he was still there and didnt go home yet...hell he was getting paid to sit around on his fuckin fat ass and make my day go down the fucking drain....
so he sits me down...
"you know what youre here for...dont you."
"fuck you."
hell...im pissed i know why im there...but i know i should try and be on his good side so...
"yeah, im expected to pee in your cup and show you that ive been clean."
"yup you got it...although<> ive heard rumors about you recently jennifer and im not liking what im hearing..."
okay that confuses me i hate muhfuckas who talk shit..
"rumors?"
"i hope that i dont see that youve used anything...i hope you surprise us..."
im still on the rumors....
"what rumors?"
"jennifer, i really hope that i dont see cocaine in your system...ive also heard that you are still smoking dope...but i really dont wanna see that youre back on cocaine..."
"WHO THE FUCK SAID THAT I WAS FUCKING DOING ALL THIS SHIT?!?!? WHAT HAPPENED TO FUCKING CONFIDENTIALITY?!?!??!"
so few minutes later im in the bathroom....big fat ass bitch is sitting outside the bathroom door making sure i dont tamper with my piss.....haha.
okay okay...the cup fell into the toilet getting my piss a little wet...soaked in water...who cares huh?
i have to fuckin redo it....
this time....shes watching me piss in the cup...her back...is not facing me...bitch.
fuckin piss all over myself? I DONT THINK SO....
i had to wash my hands a few extra times....my nerves were kinda getting to me anyways...
so after about 10 minutes the test results are in....
amphetamines....BEEEp
Opiates....BEEEPP
Phwncyclidine....BEeeP
COcaine.....
.......BEEEppp
THC? .....DING DING DING WE HAVE A WINNER!!!
oh well....its not too bad i guess....
though this thursdya we have a team meeting its gonna be brought up and if they decide to give me another chance, then ill stay clean...otherwise...you know what could happen?
they could deny my diversion case and bring it back into court
bringing out my three felonies from the dead and then ill be charged with all this shit again...then they are going to recommend a 90-120 day period of rehab for myself....I DONT FUCKING THINK SO.
but its too late for apologies....
thursday...here i come :-(