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So yea i did it.
it wasnt nearly as bad as i thought it would be.
i think it came out ok?
so idk what else to write.nothing really special going on right now.
dads. not getting better. so yea. idk whats going to happen. i feel really bad. im so glad that i have the friends that i do right now. to them it might not seem like much but they make me so happy when im around them its so much fun and it takes my mind off of alot of things. and i like that. still getting screwd over by girls. i didnt think it was that hard. and for all the people that are like "matt you could get any girl" its not true. and i dont just want any girl. i want a girl that i can have a relationship with. but w/e. im really scared about my dad. like. i dont know how much longer he has to live. and that fact scares me. hes my father. and i know i just vent like this everytime im on here. but thats what its for. ah school is such a pain i hate it but i have to go through it to get what i want in life. christmas is coming soon and ill proboly end up spending a holiday in the hospital. hopefully dad comes home doubtful tho. And when i tell people yea i spent my thanksgiving in the hospital they are like that sucks. but na it really doesnt. i got to see my dad and hes still alive at the time. which makes me greatful. yea it does suck that i didnt have a huge dinner and get to see my relatives. i just gotta value the time i have left with my father. so. on a lighter note. not this weekend but next matt brett and i are going to virigina. we are pretty much going cause matt wants to meet this girl and it just so happens that my friend emily lives in her town. so why not go? id get to hang out with emily and we are going to have fun. i just need time out of frederick. its always the same it never changes. like seriously we do the same thing all the time and i love it its fun. dont get me wrong but i do need a break a vacation. my moms so uber stressed i wish i could just make her feel better. make her happy. shes a great mom. i just wish she knew it. well idk what else much to say. ill try to update this thing awesome with my super interesting life. oh yes. the band its going really well now to. we are actually prac. and we have a new drummer and singer and all that jazz. so im really happy about that. but yea. enough said.