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so
ottobar tonight
was just what i needed
a good time.
to boost all the shit that has happend lately.
so.
along with the bad news. i dont feel like typing up all of the shit.
but.
with my dad.
rushed to the hospital yesturday.
blood clot throughout his leg.
so hes in there for a couple days.
and.
they have decided that they should put him back on khemo?
which they never should have taken him off.
which has now lead to.
the cancer spreading.
i knew it would happen.
seriously
why does all this shit have to happen all at once.
friend trouble.
dad. getting worse.
seriously .
wtf.
im just fucking waiting for them to be like he has 2 weeks or some shit.
then i can just feel like as bad as i possibly can.
idk even know what i would do.
seriously i cant even think of what it would be like without him.
never would it be the same.

.
but
on a lighter note .
if there is one.
show was good tonight.
been talking to alot of people that i havnt in a while.
which is good
im so greatful that erin is so good to me.
idk what i would do without her.
and cheri. is one of my nicest ex.gfs. there is.
and sier you are unreplaceable.
jason i know we have been through alot man but im starting to grow back to the friends we were. slowly.
it just feels so good to know you have people that care about you.
its good to get random calls.
but the one thing i hate most.
is when people only call me when bad things happen.
like why cant you just call me whenever.
but i expect to much . i always have .
so show on friday.
failed attempts last show until the new singer starts playing shows.
should be alot of fun i cant wait.
ill update more later.
hopefully things dont get worse.
i think its just so much at the time.

<3 to all who have helped.