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so Bryan and I broke up thursday night after the swim dinner. all because he thought it "wasn't working out" al because earlier that day i didn't kiss him cause i was eating. It sucks and hurts a lot but oh well. Its better 5 days in instead of months later. that only will make it harder. But now I have this guy on my butt who won't leave me alone. Yesterday I was walking down the hallway and he just eyes me and looks me up and down and says i have a nice butt in the pants i was wearing. That's just great. so yesterday was the meet. I didn't swim. My body is all messed up because of this stupid medicine. It sucks a lot but what can you do. I ended up being a lane judger with ryan's dad and talked to him about a lot of thins. he's a nice guy. afterwards just came home and laid around. Feeling blah. It sucked. woke up to fighting. woke up to being yelled at. Did chores. then went xmas shiopping with anja. We went to Home dept...that was fun...no not really. that store is so confusing. went to wally world and did everything. went to some other stores. got everything done. nothing much happening. just spending another holiday alone..what else is new. it sucks but not much you can do about that either. really there is nothing in your control anymore. but you just live with it and get over stuff and move on. Its pretty easy if you just sit back and watch your life happen and watch poeple come into and out of it. but oh well.
sp xmas i will be spending alone...literally. My sis and josh are leaving town. so xmas for me is tonight...as far as the dinner and them opening presents go. Then on the real xmas...its just me and my rents(oh the joy!!! I'm so excited *sarcasm*). not ex[ecting anything. i know what i really want i won't get. I don't expect to get anything anyway. this year hasn't been the best. in fact its been the worst. but its done. its over...thank god. next year will be my last everything while leaving in this house. That's all i'm looking forward to. I wanna leave this place on good terms and that's what i intend to do. that's my resolution for the new year. but i still got a few weeks til then.
one thing that anja said to me has been repeating in my mind..." I wish we had 2 special guys to shop for besides our dad's. I wish I had someone for xmas with me." Me and her are so much a like its creepy. She is my best friend i could have ever asked for...I <3 u!!!
sp xmas i will be spending alone...literally. My sis and josh are leaving town. so xmas for me is tonight...as far as the dinner and them opening presents go. Then on the real xmas...its just me and my rents(oh the joy!!! I'm so excited *sarcasm*). not ex[ecting anything. i know what i really want i won't get. I don't expect to get anything anyway. this year hasn't been the best. in fact its been the worst. but its done. its over...thank god. next year will be my last everything while leaving in this house. That's all i'm looking forward to. I wanna leave this place on good terms and that's what i intend to do. that's my resolution for the new year. but i still got a few weeks til then.
one thing that anja said to me has been repeating in my mind..." I wish we had 2 special guys to shop for besides our dad's. I wish I had someone for xmas with me." Me and her are so much a like its creepy. She is my best friend i could have ever asked for...I <3 u!!!