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today has been pretty boring so far. had a nightmare last night so i've been up since 5:30. it sucks but what can you do. it was so weird. last night my mom asked where matt was and i said he was working 3-9. well it was a yucky day last night and it was really scary driving(yes i drove in the rain. i'm proud of myself). well my mom said that she hoped he got home okay and what not and then i was thinking...oh no! thanksgiving is right around the corner and for the past 2 years something really bad has always happened around this tmie of year. 2 years ago my friend passed away on thanksgiving(its not something you can get over), i also found out my dad had cancer and he could have 5 years. and we also got in a car accident and my leg is all fucked up. last year, kyle cheated on me. something bad always happens to me on this holiday and time of year! but when my mom said that she hoped matt got home okay i started thinking about what 'what if's' damn those what ifs. they will make a sane person go insane. anyway my nightmare was that my phone went off, and i was alking down this hallway with a bunch of people looking at me. i was all dressed up and what not. so i get to the end of the hallway and i reach my phone which was on a chair. and i hear matt's in the hospital. so next thing i kno i'm sprinting down the hallway. i go the hospital and i see my family and anja. and anja comes up to me and says you need a hug. then matt's mom(who i have never met) came up to me and said he wants only you. so i go into a room and he's there. and i sit next to him and he says he loves me and sits up and gives me 'the kiss' and then goes to sleep...or it looks like he went to sleep. so then the nurses and everyone comes in and everyone is going crazy. so i start sobbing and anja came in and cried with me. then i went home and cried and she came with me. then next thing i know, i'm pregnant. it was a freaking preganacy dream again!!!! wtf is this shit! anyway, i woke up really fast from that and just watched tv until 9. then i went to the commesary with mom and wally world. i got a sexay jacket! hehe. so then came home, rents had a fight..what else is new. and i was so bored i cleaned my room...go me! its all nice and purty now. i'm proud of myself. sothat was my day so far. now i'm just wasting time until matt gets off of work. me him anja and a friend of hers are i guess going to a movie but i duno. i gotta call him at some point i guess. its a really small world...
swim try outs for kellam high school, monday Nov. 15 at seateck rec, be in the water by 2:30 with physical. any takers!
swim try outs for kellam high school, monday Nov. 15 at seateck rec, be in the water by 2:30 with physical. any takers!