oddness
Ok, so I don't know what to make of things. I'm at work after having to fight with my pychology homework to actually get the internet links to work. And for now I feel surprisingly...empty or just blank. Can't really tell yet.
Saturday was fun, if the night didn't go as planned and if you know me, ask sometime. I might get into details if I feel like it. There are so many frustrating things going on right now...and for a while school isn't one of them.
First off, my desk job is going to screw me up the ass further if given the opportunity. I did my first real screw up here (after being such a great worker) and I get on probation. I forgot about a shift, actually my eyes totally missed it and upon getting the voicemail I sent an email to our manager, apologizing profusely and explaining what happened. This led to a meeting with January...never good. She put me on probation after asking what happened and how I can fix it. How the hell do you fix that?!? It was an honest mistake, and my first if I can recall. What really made that sting was at the required desk meeting two hours later, we had the same thing told to us and supposedly, I was supposed to get a warning first considering it was my first offense. For everything I've done at this desk...I know I shouldn't be pissed, but Matt White and I were discussing things and yeah, we'll probably be fired for either no reason or a really dumb one. January is alienating all of Eric's favorite workers and slowly getting rid of them. So now I've applied to work at KT, since I still want my job because if I get fired I can no longer work at any front desk on campus.
Secondly, Hardee's is going to drive me even more nuts. After 3 days being back, I know why I originally wanted to leave. And yet I have no real time to get ready for anything until a break. And nothing is going to get better there either. It's the same as it was when I left the one at home. Ryan isn't doing anything to make it better. I knew that nothing was going to get done.
Finally, the whole thing with telling my parents that I'm engaged. I think mom has a guess, but I just don't know how to tell them. We were going to wait until Peter could ask dad for his permission since I'm dad's little girl out of the 3 of us (yes I have half-sisters), but I just want to tell them. Everyone else knows but our parents and he could easily tell his parents, but I know that it's not going to be so easy with mine. Telling mine anything is never easy. Even if I try to calm them in telling them we've thought everything out and we're not jumping into this (we are at least waiting until we graduate and get somewhat settled somewhere so we've got some time), and it's just frustrating. It adds on the the whole aspect of me trying to be an adult and my parents (who swear I have they're backing on things) shoot me down or question everything I do.
I'm just ready to float, which I know is dangerous for me to do, but it's the only thing I can do besides being frustrated. Or find someway to cry since I really can't do so anymore unless provoked. oh well....
Saturday was fun, if the night didn't go as planned and if you know me, ask sometime. I might get into details if I feel like it. There are so many frustrating things going on right now...and for a while school isn't one of them.
First off, my desk job is going to screw me up the ass further if given the opportunity. I did my first real screw up here (after being such a great worker) and I get on probation. I forgot about a shift, actually my eyes totally missed it and upon getting the voicemail I sent an email to our manager, apologizing profusely and explaining what happened. This led to a meeting with January...never good. She put me on probation after asking what happened and how I can fix it. How the hell do you fix that?!? It was an honest mistake, and my first if I can recall. What really made that sting was at the required desk meeting two hours later, we had the same thing told to us and supposedly, I was supposed to get a warning first considering it was my first offense. For everything I've done at this desk...I know I shouldn't be pissed, but Matt White and I were discussing things and yeah, we'll probably be fired for either no reason or a really dumb one. January is alienating all of Eric's favorite workers and slowly getting rid of them. So now I've applied to work at KT, since I still want my job because if I get fired I can no longer work at any front desk on campus.
Secondly, Hardee's is going to drive me even more nuts. After 3 days being back, I know why I originally wanted to leave. And yet I have no real time to get ready for anything until a break. And nothing is going to get better there either. It's the same as it was when I left the one at home. Ryan isn't doing anything to make it better. I knew that nothing was going to get done.
Finally, the whole thing with telling my parents that I'm engaged. I think mom has a guess, but I just don't know how to tell them. We were going to wait until Peter could ask dad for his permission since I'm dad's little girl out of the 3 of us (yes I have half-sisters), but I just want to tell them. Everyone else knows but our parents and he could easily tell his parents, but I know that it's not going to be so easy with mine. Telling mine anything is never easy. Even if I try to calm them in telling them we've thought everything out and we're not jumping into this (we are at least waiting until we graduate and get somewhat settled somewhere so we've got some time), and it's just frustrating. It adds on the the whole aspect of me trying to be an adult and my parents (who swear I have they're backing on things) shoot me down or question everything I do.
I'm just ready to float, which I know is dangerous for me to do, but it's the only thing I can do besides being frustrated. Or find someway to cry since I really can't do so anymore unless provoked. oh well....