just a little longer
Ok, so this spring break has definitely been fun. Have found more reason to go to Chicago again, and might do so next summer. Anyone up for it? Madison yesterday was too much fun and I spent a little too much money, but not so horrible that I can't make up for it. Have so much stuff to do once we get back tomorrow, but most of it won't start happening until Monday even though science paper will be done by Thursday. *crosses fingers* Or so I hope. I'll probably continue playing Zeldo: Ocarina of Time in a little while given I said I was going to.
Bought a completely vamped outfit yesterday that almost fits me, well the skirt doesn't but considering it was all for under $20 I did good. My feet have finally gotten to hurting stage fully, but I really don't care. Went to high school orchestra concert to hear roomie's brother play, fell completely into nostalgia. I miss playing in a group. After shopping for stuff tomorrow, that will be the next thing I do while I wait for Peter.
He's been the one thing that has kept me in solace the past couple days. I've missed him so much because I've wanted to show him what I've been seeing and I can't. I've realized that I've become hopeless with that boy and completely fallen for him and everything that's happening, but it feels so natural that I haven't really noticed. Or cared for that matter. But in just over 24 hours I'll be back with him and back home in EC.
Really have some stuff to do when we get back since I really didn't want to worry about homework while I was here, and I remembered that I have a test on Wednesday in stats, but we have review on Monday, so I should be fine. And have a quick assignment to do, but it won't take that long for me to do. Just correlation stuff.
I want to go back home. I want to be with Peter. I want to do a reading and to play my violin again. I want to be back to get into the swing of things again. I miss everything. Only a little longer...
My belief in everything that I can do is wrong. That the gifts I've been given are a joke. I could make so much money off of them too. But if no one really believes, what's the point? I believe in it, enough since I really don't know how to accept them. It's hard to do that when everyone else sees it as a joke, as a gag, as people being too skeptical and logical to figure out how it works. I don't know how it does, it just does.
My belief isn't wrong I guess, just I'm lost. I know to just say "screw it" to everyone else, but it has an effect on me. I know that it shouldn't but I'm slowly realizing I'm becoming what I don't want to be. I'm panicing. I'm freaking out and my safe place and release are 5 hours away from me. I just want to get back...just a little longer.
Bought a completely vamped outfit yesterday that almost fits me, well the skirt doesn't but considering it was all for under $20 I did good. My feet have finally gotten to hurting stage fully, but I really don't care. Went to high school orchestra concert to hear roomie's brother play, fell completely into nostalgia. I miss playing in a group. After shopping for stuff tomorrow, that will be the next thing I do while I wait for Peter.
He's been the one thing that has kept me in solace the past couple days. I've missed him so much because I've wanted to show him what I've been seeing and I can't. I've realized that I've become hopeless with that boy and completely fallen for him and everything that's happening, but it feels so natural that I haven't really noticed. Or cared for that matter. But in just over 24 hours I'll be back with him and back home in EC.
Really have some stuff to do when we get back since I really didn't want to worry about homework while I was here, and I remembered that I have a test on Wednesday in stats, but we have review on Monday, so I should be fine. And have a quick assignment to do, but it won't take that long for me to do. Just correlation stuff.
I want to go back home. I want to be with Peter. I want to do a reading and to play my violin again. I want to be back to get into the swing of things again. I miss everything. Only a little longer...
My belief in everything that I can do is wrong. That the gifts I've been given are a joke. I could make so much money off of them too. But if no one really believes, what's the point? I believe in it, enough since I really don't know how to accept them. It's hard to do that when everyone else sees it as a joke, as a gag, as people being too skeptical and logical to figure out how it works. I don't know how it does, it just does.
My belief isn't wrong I guess, just I'm lost. I know to just say "screw it" to everyone else, but it has an effect on me. I know that it shouldn't but I'm slowly realizing I'm becoming what I don't want to be. I'm panicing. I'm freaking out and my safe place and release are 5 hours away from me. I just want to get back...just a little longer.