The Future Isn't Written in Stone (and Even if it Were, Stone can be Broken)
Today was a good day.
I suppose I should preface that, as I had posted on tumblr a few days ago but neglected to update here.
I lost my job on Thursday. It was a good job, with good pay and really sweet benefits and once upon a time, I absolutely loved it. But times change, and companies change, and as someplace that always felt like a small town store melded into the corporate feel, my job wasn't what it was anymore. While I still loved what I did, I was so tired of the politics and the backstabbing and the always having to be on guard with everything I said.
(Those of you who know me well, know that I'm a very blunt person. 'Candidly honest' I've been called. I don't deal well with bullshit.)
So things changed, I was unhappy and then I got fired.
It was a shock, not gonna lie. And there was this sick feeling in my stomach, a question about how I'm going to pay my bills, make it through the month, put gas in my car. But in telling people that I was fired, I got a job interview less than 24 hours after the fact.
And then, there was just this feeling of relief. I'm relieved that it's over. I honestly don't miss the job, just the people and the ones that were my friends? We're still going to be friends.
I can put all that focus from a job that was exhausting me into doing something that makes me happy again. I can spend two hours on my makeup, I can write erotica, make a fanmix. Work on a card game concept that we keep talking about, but never do. Start making vlogs with makeup advice, and take clients on the side.
It's the advice that I keep hearing, but never had the courage to follow: Do what you love, the money will follow. Today I met with a client, spent four hours working on a webpage, went to a fantastic dinner afterwards. Did some networking, gave out my email. Time to rebuild a website that doesn't have fannish stuff all over it, work on myself a little.
I also posted a little Darcy/Steve ficlet that I wrote in 20 minutes, and people really like it! That's always a great ego boost, haha. Thank goodness for fandom.
I'm honestly excited about what the future has in store for me.
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I suppose I should preface that, as I had posted on tumblr a few days ago but neglected to update here.
I lost my job on Thursday. It was a good job, with good pay and really sweet benefits and once upon a time, I absolutely loved it. But times change, and companies change, and as someplace that always felt like a small town store melded into the corporate feel, my job wasn't what it was anymore. While I still loved what I did, I was so tired of the politics and the backstabbing and the always having to be on guard with everything I said.
(Those of you who know me well, know that I'm a very blunt person. 'Candidly honest' I've been called. I don't deal well with bullshit.)
So things changed, I was unhappy and then I got fired.
It was a shock, not gonna lie. And there was this sick feeling in my stomach, a question about how I'm going to pay my bills, make it through the month, put gas in my car. But in telling people that I was fired, I got a job interview less than 24 hours after the fact.
And then, there was just this feeling of relief. I'm relieved that it's over. I honestly don't miss the job, just the people and the ones that were my friends? We're still going to be friends.
I can put all that focus from a job that was exhausting me into doing something that makes me happy again. I can spend two hours on my makeup, I can write erotica, make a fanmix. Work on a card game concept that we keep talking about, but never do. Start making vlogs with makeup advice, and take clients on the side.
It's the advice that I keep hearing, but never had the courage to follow: Do what you love, the money will follow. Today I met with a client, spent four hours working on a webpage, went to a fantastic dinner afterwards. Did some networking, gave out my email. Time to rebuild a website that doesn't have fannish stuff all over it, work on myself a little.
I also posted a little Darcy/Steve ficlet that I wrote in 20 minutes, and people really like it! That's always a great ego boost, haha. Thank goodness for fandom.
I'm honestly excited about what the future has in store for me.
This entry was originally posted at http://sometimesyoufly.dreamwidth.org/2821.html. Please comment there using OpenID.