*Seniors '06* & *what doesn't kill us is making us stronger*
So at Gwyns house we were all sitting around the fire and looking around i think i started to take back that thought that my senior year might suck....
We all talked and realized that we're a hell of a lot more alike than we thought. Even though a few of us (ahemm Court and Dee and me) are stressing out about what were gunna do, where we're gunna go and most of all those days where we have to say good bye. It's not even close and honestly i could start crying about it all- i've been with these people some for over 11 years and some only about 4 but it's like i've known em all forever. Who thought complete strangers could be all friends and sit around a fire and drink. Our plans and our dreams and wishes... Guys i hope to God everything comes true. With out you guys i dont think i'd ever get by!
My aunt (knock on wood) doesn't have many days left and it's such a horrible feeling. Sitting around with my family just kind of staring at her- everyone getting scared when her breathing gets irregular. the feeling of losing someone day by day that has been there your whole entire life is such an odd feeling... a wierd feeling... a feeling that you would never wish upon anyone. I guess i feel so bad because i (along with most of my family) knew this day would come but kind of just looked by it because it was so "far away" that it wasnt necessary to worry about and now it's here... slapping us in the face. Yet again a "death" or close to it and it's feelings that come along with it prevail over feelings of happiness and surprisingly a sense of security. So i guess through all this i learned that nothing is really secure in any life. Nothing stays the same and Nothing is ever a sure thing. But i'm sure a girl can pretend or maybe even believe that everything is indeed a sure thing and there's nothing negative in the world to bring anyones smile down. So major props to the girls and guys that can keep their heads up through everything. Look at the bad and take away from it lessons learned and the positives that come out of every negative situation.
I think im just really confused right now. Maybe confused isn't the word but it's something like that. To the point where i don't ever feel good- as in i feel sick to my stomach. i'm always just sleeping or chilling being lazy around the house.
But here's to to Seniors '06- because we're all in it together <3