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schiarire - five things about Judas that almost made Lucifer love him
1) From the angry passion that infuses his voice to the defensive angle of his chin, he is every inch a revolutionary. The salt of Galilee is in him, bitter and rough; if not for the similarly salted winds of his desire for change, he would be entirely barren. He produces the hardy grains of determination and innovation, grown up straight and sparse in his saline personality.
The first time they meet, Judas is a little bit drunk, and he talks for almost an interrupted hour on the wrongs that he sees and the fact that someone has to hold even the most powerful of authorities accountable.
He is correct, and inspired, and doomed.
2) “Nehorai,” he says, and kisses Lucifer with neither strong affection nor ignorance of social convention; just curiosity, and a little kinship.
3) He does not trust Lucifer implicitly, and that is a good thing, because Lucifer is no longer someone that anyone should place all of their trust in. Judas does, however, recognise that he was. At one time.
4) “You’re right,” Judas says without preamble. “I know what do to.”
Lucifer shrugs one shoulder and traces a slow spiral on the back of Judas’ hand, closing his eyes for a moment over the expression of approval.
Judas lifts Lucifer’s hand away, his touch lingering a little but not too long, and looks at him with distance. “This isn’t for you,” he says.
5) Judas kills himself because he is intrinsically too proud not to; because the extrinsic pride has been replaced by shame, and that is unbearable.