Late night emotional breakdows
Y'know, there was one person out there I thought I'd always be able to count on. One person who wouldn't hurt me. One person who was more intelligent than the other's I've wasted my time on. One person who, even though I wasn't in a relationship with, would make me feel better.
So here I am single, and I think we have something more than just the usual friendship going on. Something special. Like we were together.
After all day, looking forward to seeing him, thinking about him, all that lovey dovey bullshit, I get to talk to him.
And he's chosen someone else over me.
I knew I should have tried pushing towards him sooner. But there was always something. Someone else. Distance. Other such nebulous things. Just this past week, I was afraid if we ended up together that I'd accidentally hurt him.
Irony!
I should have known better than to put any stock in people who don't want to hurt me. It ends up being so much worse when it does happen. Though I guess I'm okay. I'll be fine in the morning. I'm used to getting hurt.
I don't think I've been this messed up over someone I wasn't with ever before. Maybe I'm still too oversensitive.
Another piece for the mask, I suppose. I hope it'll still fit.
So here I am single, and I think we have something more than just the usual friendship going on. Something special. Like we were together.
After all day, looking forward to seeing him, thinking about him, all that lovey dovey bullshit, I get to talk to him.
And he's chosen someone else over me.
I knew I should have tried pushing towards him sooner. But there was always something. Someone else. Distance. Other such nebulous things. Just this past week, I was afraid if we ended up together that I'd accidentally hurt him.
Irony!
I should have known better than to put any stock in people who don't want to hurt me. It ends up being so much worse when it does happen. Though I guess I'm okay. I'll be fine in the morning. I'm used to getting hurt.
I don't think I've been this messed up over someone I wasn't with ever before. Maybe I'm still too oversensitive.
Another piece for the mask, I suppose. I hope it'll still fit.