Maybe I should wear lipstick too.
I'm so done with high school. I really can't stand being around my "peers"(I hate that word because it means they have some connection to me) anymore. Every day in AP Government I have to listen to an ultra-conservative republican douchebag spout his opinions on social and political issues. In German I have to sit around idiot freshmen who laugh at everything I say...even when I'm not trying to be funny. Intensive Writing is a lot of work, but I really love writing so it's okay. Statistics is a waste of time. We do like 5 problems and then take a 30 minute break. It's not like I really enjoy math, but come on.. AP Psych is easy, but my classmates are annoying and dull. Music Theory is another waste of time. Spanish 4 Honors is boring as hell. And I hate walking throughout the halls and seeing all the dumbass bros and sluts and just GASDASD I am so done with it.
I'm sending in my application to Columbia College Chicago today. Thinking of it makes me want to cry. I'm serious. Thinking of how my life could and will be if I go there with Bobby and Matt....it's how I've always wanted my life to be(NOTE: FUCK I'm playing "All My Friends" by BSS while I write this and it's making me want to cry more and makes it seem so sappy GAH). Hillary and Cassie, if all goes well, will be on the other side of the city. We can just crash at each other's dorms every weekend or whatever. And I'll be going to an arts college. I have never wanted more than to be in the city, with my best friends, donned in my INDIE FAG attire, in RECKLESS RECORDS! and surrounded by hipsters. I'm so happy at what the future can and hopefully will be. It might just make up for the fact that I haven't been very happy with the past few years of my life. But I can't complain too much. ALSO Rachel is going to be close too so that will be nice. I miss her...even though I see her(or you, if you're reading this) at least every other day.
I hope everything works out. Because I am NOT staying here. I was actually told I could go to college in Ireland or Japan. If things don't work out here....I might just jet the fuck out. I just want to be done with this life for a while(preferably, forever). People say you'll look back. I'd be shocked as fuck if I ever do. Just...no.
I'm sending in my application to Columbia College Chicago today. Thinking of it makes me want to cry. I'm serious. Thinking of how my life could and will be if I go there with Bobby and Matt....it's how I've always wanted my life to be(NOTE: FUCK I'm playing "All My Friends" by BSS while I write this and it's making me want to cry more and makes it seem so sappy GAH). Hillary and Cassie, if all goes well, will be on the other side of the city. We can just crash at each other's dorms every weekend or whatever. And I'll be going to an arts college. I have never wanted more than to be in the city, with my best friends, donned in my INDIE FAG attire, in RECKLESS RECORDS! and surrounded by hipsters. I'm so happy at what the future can and hopefully will be. It might just make up for the fact that I haven't been very happy with the past few years of my life. But I can't complain too much. ALSO Rachel is going to be close too so that will be nice. I miss her...even though I see her(or you, if you're reading this) at least every other day.
I hope everything works out. Because I am NOT staying here. I was actually told I could go to college in Ireland or Japan. If things don't work out here....I might just jet the fuck out. I just want to be done with this life for a while(preferably, forever). People say you'll look back. I'd be shocked as fuck if I ever do. Just...no.