Yes, no, maybe? Life feels complicated in my head.
It's funny...you think there's nothing left there, no feelings, nothing. You think it's all just conversations and small-talk every now and then but it isn't. You think just because you're not together anymore and she broke your heart, that you don't have strong feelings for her, but you do. I get this really dramatic text message from Tiff (as usual. she exaggerates it all, no kiddin!) saying that Jacki posted a bulletin on her myspace about how this guy has been stalking her and has been circling around her apartment and tried to kiss her and shit, ugh...it was enough to upset my stomach. I had just walked out of the theatre (starwars, yes) and I read this unexpected text, so..I sort of freaked. I immediately thought, wow, I'm going to drive out there and smash this guys head open or something. But, then I realized that I should probably just call Jacki and see whats up. Anyway, I hope the creep fucking disappears and dies. Guys are fucking terrible, sometimes. Jesus.
But it was just the thought of someone hurting Jacki or possibly hurting her, that tore me up...like, I really realized lastnight just how much I care for this girl, still. That I would be devastated if anything would ever happen to her and that all I want for her, is for her to just be happy...and safe. With or without me. That's what I wish, what I hope, and want.
Star Wars:Episode3. YEAAH, it was, amusing. I don't know. Heh. Whatever, yaknow. Anakin is fucking annoying. He should've died...once again, this is what I don't get- you're facing the enemy, why tease the fucker by twisting his arm or cutting open his leg or whatever?!! FUCKING KILL HIM, WATCH HIM DIE. BE SURE HE'S NOT MOVING, NOT BREATHING, AND THEN WALK AWAY. I thought it was silly, sorry. That kind of shit bothers me. So anyway, it was fun to watch...and I suggest you watch it on the big screen because theres a cool feeling about watching Starwars but in the end, its a disappoinment, I think. Who knows, maybe you'll love it.
I feel like I'm driving myself mad right now. There's more than a couple of things on my mind, even you, why do you do this to yourself, Irmywormy?
I need to drink. That's not good. Can't be relying on the alcohol to make your troubles go away and come back and hit you even harder, in the face..
LIKE A BULLET BETWEEN YOUR TEETH.
But it was just the thought of someone hurting Jacki or possibly hurting her, that tore me up...like, I really realized lastnight just how much I care for this girl, still. That I would be devastated if anything would ever happen to her and that all I want for her, is for her to just be happy...and safe. With or without me. That's what I wish, what I hope, and want.
Star Wars:Episode3. YEAAH, it was, amusing. I don't know. Heh. Whatever, yaknow. Anakin is fucking annoying. He should've died...once again, this is what I don't get- you're facing the enemy, why tease the fucker by twisting his arm or cutting open his leg or whatever?!! FUCKING KILL HIM, WATCH HIM DIE. BE SURE HE'S NOT MOVING, NOT BREATHING, AND THEN WALK AWAY. I thought it was silly, sorry. That kind of shit bothers me. So anyway, it was fun to watch...and I suggest you watch it on the big screen because theres a cool feeling about watching Starwars but in the end, its a disappoinment, I think. Who knows, maybe you'll love it.
I feel like I'm driving myself mad right now. There's more than a couple of things on my mind, even you, why do you do this to yourself, Irmywormy?
I need to drink. That's not good. Can't be relying on the alcohol to make your troubles go away and come back and hit you even harder, in the face..
LIKE A BULLET BETWEEN YOUR TEETH.