self-loathing

[faggotfosho_yo]

UGGGHHH!!!!

UGH GUGH GUG HGUGHGHGhsdkgsdlgjdksljgvxcojvkldsjgoiSDJGposdjgkljsdgsa

I hate how i'm stupid and ruin everything good i have goin for me
i hate how im get bored easily
i hate how i don't have the one i love
i hate unrequited shit
i hate how he moved on
i hate how i haven't..and i'm the one who left
i hate how i can't stop thinking of him
i hate how i can't bare to see him without me
i hate how everything reminds me of him
i hate how i'm still in love with him
....

but yet, i don't
i am still in love with him
i love how i am
i love how he still takes the time to talk to me

but why does this have to hurt so much?

i can't take this hurt....
what have i done?
why oh why am i an idiot..

god i miss him
so damn much

.....god