ive never been so sad

[faggette]

4 model cars from the 70's, all given to me from my grandfather 3 weeks before he died. 1 of them is now fine, 3 have problems (1 with a missing door, one without wind shield, and another with the doors that wont stay on). he gave them to me to keep and give them to my kids. how can i do that when they are broken? how can i make this man who i only met 3 times, and my little sister didnt even get to meet him cause he passed away. its devistating enough that i didnt get to go to his funeral, and so this 1 thing he gives me to never forget him, its nothing more then a throw toy to people i see as best friends. was it on purpose to throw them? yes. did it make them feel better about themsevles? probably. how do i feel that the one thing making me remember one of the greatest men alive in my life is notihng but trash now? im crush, especially when it was at the expense of my best friend..

i miss and love you Grandpa Madore

<3 R.I.P.

you were the only person i ever knew who didnt make me feel like i was terrible.