Well, that settles it.
I've been contemplating this for a while, and I think now would be a good time.
Once I've finished downloading my journal entries, I'm going to quit LJ.
I know I've said it for a while, but I've had it.
I joined LJ to get close to a friend, but she never posts. And then she decided I didn't really fit in the friend category. Just kinda. And you know what? I don't like the kinda category. No one has ever been in the kinda category for me. I either love them, or I don't.
The frustrating thing is I still love her no matter what.
My words, my heart, nothing gets through. I even tried calling her New Year's Eve to wish her a Happy New Year, and she didn't answer, didn't call back, and didn't let me know she'd gotten the call. Total silence.
Makes me wonder if her feelings ever got through. I probably bullied her into being my 'best friend' way back when. I thought we had good rapport. I tried to support her through some things, although I have to admit she was in my life when I was going through the biggest transition from teen to adult. (My transition was tough.)
Was I there for her enough? Did I try to listen? Did I support her enough before I got married? Did I encourage her to pursue her dreams?
The biggest regret that I have is that I can't answer any of those questions with a definitive yes or no. But I think it's time that I stop holding on to the past and move on to the future.
Zanthess, email me, I've lost your email (baka that I am) and would love to continue talking to you.
To everyone else, thank you for listening to my ranting and raving and general craziness. It's been a great 2 years.
To WC thanks for the wonderful 5 months. I'm going to try to find a writing group around where I live. I know it won't be as good as you but I still treasure the few meetings I had with you.
To Gin_Yoku - the best. Always.
To Elle Cosette - you are awesome. Truly, totally, awesome. And inspiring.
And to Garcalian - I'm nominating you for the teacher feature thing on KSL. I should have done it years ago, but out of all the teachers I've ever had, you listened to me the most, and seemed to genuinely care about me. That has always meant a lot to me. You even read one of my terrible stories. That was a true act of kindness. I'll try to visit some time. You ought to meet my little terrors. I think you'd like 'em.
That being said - take care all!
Once I've finished downloading my journal entries, I'm going to quit LJ.
I know I've said it for a while, but I've had it.
I joined LJ to get close to a friend, but she never posts. And then she decided I didn't really fit in the friend category. Just kinda. And you know what? I don't like the kinda category. No one has ever been in the kinda category for me. I either love them, or I don't.
The frustrating thing is I still love her no matter what.
My words, my heart, nothing gets through. I even tried calling her New Year's Eve to wish her a Happy New Year, and she didn't answer, didn't call back, and didn't let me know she'd gotten the call. Total silence.
Makes me wonder if her feelings ever got through. I probably bullied her into being my 'best friend' way back when. I thought we had good rapport. I tried to support her through some things, although I have to admit she was in my life when I was going through the biggest transition from teen to adult. (My transition was tough.)
Was I there for her enough? Did I try to listen? Did I support her enough before I got married? Did I encourage her to pursue her dreams?
The biggest regret that I have is that I can't answer any of those questions with a definitive yes or no. But I think it's time that I stop holding on to the past and move on to the future.
Zanthess, email me, I've lost your email (baka that I am) and would love to continue talking to you.
To everyone else, thank you for listening to my ranting and raving and general craziness. It's been a great 2 years.
To WC thanks for the wonderful 5 months. I'm going to try to find a writing group around where I live. I know it won't be as good as you but I still treasure the few meetings I had with you.
To Gin_Yoku - the best. Always.
To Elle Cosette - you are awesome. Truly, totally, awesome. And inspiring.
And to Garcalian - I'm nominating you for the teacher feature thing on KSL. I should have done it years ago, but out of all the teachers I've ever had, you listened to me the most, and seemed to genuinely care about me. That has always meant a lot to me. You even read one of my terrible stories. That was a true act of kindness. I'll try to visit some time. You ought to meet my little terrors. I think you'd like 'em.
That being said - take care all!